cPTSD Triggered Sooooo Bad!!!!

 

Page 235 of 365.

Good Morning Lovies. It's Caturday!!!The skies look like they are going to cooperate with those of you who planned any outdoor activities. Don't quote me on that though, I haven't bothered looking on the weather network, or any weather app, for that matter. 

I just woke up a little while ago, and knew I had to get this off my chest, as I had a difficult time sleeping last night.

I had already been feeling off, and anxious the past week or so, more than usual; then an event happened last night AND the evening before that has left me shook... so, yah... I am not fully functioning as my cPTSD has been triggered, and I'm trying to work through it without any medication.

To make a long story very short, remember earlier in the year, I had been telling y'all about a guy who worked for the company who owns the building I live in? Well, he no longer works here... I believe he was fired. For some reason, he appears at my building every fkn day. He has NO reason to be here... NONE!!! 

He was here two nights ago. I couldn't even enjoy sitting on my balcony, because he was sitting right out front of the building. Yesterday, his truck was parked, blocking the stairs to the front of the building, with him trekking through the building and he was standing in the back of the building, so I literally was confined to my apartment. Can someone explain to me, how this is fair to me, as a tenant??? 

As someone who is a sexual assault and sexual harassment victim of HIS??? The owners and everyone below the owner, including their legal department, know what he has done... the employees who work in this building even say he is not allowed on the premises, so how come every time I turn around, he is on the property, roaming around freely??? 

I am guessing this is one more thing I have to add, when I file against this slumlord company... good thing I have pictures, witnesses and paperwork to back everything up, eh?

Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. MOst of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

FFS I Matter Too!!!

Image
Good evening lovies. I have been struggling with something that is very close to my heart. I truly do not know where to proceed next. I'm going to try and make a very long story as simple as I can... I was adopted at 5months of age, (well apprehended at 5 months, adopted at 5 years). There is something that adoptees yearn for all their lives... WHY?  I know for me there were many questions and on my 19th birthday it appeared I was going to get those answers when I met the woman who birthed me. Unfortunately, I was sorely mistaken!!! Years went by, and I allowed this woman to have control over certain things that were weighing heavily on my heart, She held the one piece of the puzzle that felt missing from my heart... who my biological father was?!! I, one day decided that I wasn't going to allow another person have that kind of control over me... EVER!!! I left the situation alone. I struggled deeply. I was literally at war with myself. on this topic. In a way, I felt guilty th...
Read more

It's a Hide Under the Covers Kinda Day

Image
Page 14 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I really, really hope your day is going better than mine!!! Sorry, woke up at the asscrack of dawn, as I had a doctor's appointment this morning.  Thankfully it was with my family doctor; appointments with him are fairly painless.  Today, however; things kinda went sideways.  I am usually in and out within 10 mins for these appts, but today? I was there for over 45 minutes. Of course, it didn't help that I was puking maroon blood in the office. I know, I don't share a lot of my medical nor really personal stuff on here, but just so you're aware, this has been happening daily since end of May/beginning of June last year. I am what they call an "anemic blood clotter" which I didn't think was possible, but apparently it runs on the paternal side of my family. Anyways, that was the main focus of my visit after that. My stomach medication is being switched AGAIN, this time I am being set up with an antibiotic (which is cra...
Read more

Tis the Season.... Why I Am Proud of Local Tattoo Shop!!!

Image
  Page 307 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I am not sure how long this blurb is going to be; as it seems to be a topic I have been beating to death this past year. I know it is the time of the year where we switch from Halloween/Samhain into Thanksgiving (in the US) to Yule/Christmas season.  I hate pointing out this fact, but people seem to feel like Christmas time is the only time of the year that they should be charitable...  Is it out of guilt that you are donating, or is it because you genuinely feel you should be helping people??? I AM sort of calling you out because this is NOT the only time of the year that the homeless, or the downtrodden need help. I cannot stand that this is around the only time you will see non-stop commercials/ads or billboards that are asking for help with various charities; also the time we see commercials about driving under the influence. WHY IS THAT??? Driving under the influence is a year-long problem... I will not get into details about...
Read more