Hopeless Romantic

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Good Afternoon Lovies. Today, I am just gonna wing it with what is on my mind. 

Before I begin, I hope you all are having a great Sunday Funday. 

I am sorta just chillaxing, listening to songs reminding me of my youth... roadtrips, camping trips to my favourite places... way out of the concrete jungle and into the wilderness park... where my heart always yearns to be.

I have a lil thing I wanna talk about, it may seem a bit weird to talk about, considering the day and age we live in; but it something I see day-in and day-out. I understand why people feel the way they do, and I completely respect it; that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt my heart.

It has been the trend for years, where people's preference is to remain single; whether it has been from a bad break up or a death. I am from the Gen X era, and it seems to be really prominent in our age group, (It may be in other eras too, but I can only speak of my own).... I don't know what it is for everyone, so I can only speak from my personal experience. 

The world changed, so did people's priorities. 

I think I am not wording this right. I feel sad for those of us who have chosen to remain single over finding someone to share life with, all because most people out there are either too afraid to open their hearts again; or just tired of being stomped on.

This breaks my heart.

I can say from my own experience that I have gotten in relationships simply because I didn't want to be alone. I finally hit a time when I chose for myself that I am better off being single because there wasn't a person out there for me. If I couldn't have someone who would match my effort, love and loyalty, there was no point. 

I completely understood and appreciated everyone who chose to be this way; it sucked, but the way of the world was different. People were just out to use and abuse others. Nothing seemed to matter; but the almighty dollar. Keeping your word meant nothing. Loyalty??? WTF was that?!!

After the last relationship I had, which ended on terrible terms. I vowed to give myself time to truly heal. It was simply going to be me, myself and I. There was literally no more love within me to give. I was not interested in having even a FWB relationship... Don't get it wrong, I am a Sagittarius, so I am a very sexual person, but I was even done with that... I was done with men AND women, in that way.

Let's fast forward... Slowly, or maybe all along, and I was just blinded by it... there was a man in my life that was everything I needed and wanted. Someone who had my heart all along; not just my heart... He is the man who touched my soul, body, mind and heart with such passion, I blush even writing this!!!

The loyalty, love, honesty, trust and honour between us has NEVER faltered, and only grows stronger as we age. I think the bottom line of this blurb is this... I only wish everyone I knew would be able to find their person... their purple. The wait is worth it. Call me a hopeless romantic... It is what it is!!!

Be LOVED

~ Phoenix