Feeling Disconnected

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Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you are all enjoying this sunny, yet brisk Friday. I love to look outside and see the beautiful fresh snow; but I wasn't thrilled on the wind... UGH!!!

I am in a weird mood today. It's one I can't really describe. I am quiet and somewhat at peace. The story is pretty simple...

I have gone round n round in circles with my parents for decades, and I basically closed the door on them; when I could no longer tolerate the rudeness without disrespecting myself. I couldn't do it.

My 50th birthday was a few days ago. I didn't really blow it up on social media; because even though I ALWAYS celebrate the people I love birthday... I just wanted to lay in peace and solitude. It gave me the chance to reflect on all my blessings and lessons. I am grateful that I have a genuine, honest, loyal, loving man. I lack for nothing. I am getting way off track....

What I was getting at here, is this... my parents never called, texted, nor emailed me. They have conveniently forgotten me for many social family events, or they will berate me, texting or calling, demanding I wear an appropriate shirt. Like WTF??? I didn't realize I was 10!!! So, I took the advice of someone who probably knows me better than I know myself... I severed ties. I needed to heal, and in order to do that; I could no longer allow people to treat me the same. 

Besides all that, my father text me last night to inform me that one of my uncles had passed away. Literally, that was the complete message. I offered condolences, they said thanks; and convo went static. No info or location, date nor time... Awesome, right???

As I have said before, Please remember this time of year is tough on people... much more than any other time. Someone who is acting out of character, could be struggling. Show some kindness... You never know who could need it!!!

Stay safe. Be well. Be blessed.

~ Phoenix

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