One Down, Eleven More to Go

Page 31 of 365. Last Page of Book One.

Good Morning Lovies. Happy Saturday!!! I hope the day finds you well. If something is troubling you, I send you hugs and the most positive vibes out there. For those of you who are venturing out this weekend, I hope you have a great time. 

Stay safe and please stay warm. I hope the weather cooperates with your travels.

I will be staying in my comfy lil bubble. I feel like a dick for not committing more to my writing; but there hasn't been anything extremely important I need to g4et off my chest. 

There is one topic that is always on my mind, so I feel I should talk about it; better to let it out than let it fester, right?

I see this over and over, throughout my life. People with the biggest hearts are the ones who hurt the worst. They want to help the world, but that desire is taken advantage of by pretty much everyone in their life. It's almost like, they expect it of you when you are nice to them, even once. I call these type of people "energy vampyres"... they suck everything out of you; and NOT in the good way!!!

It is usually the empaths that suffer the most. The ones in my life are for sure. We tend to forget about ourselves and give and give. We give up our wants and needs to make sure others are taken care of, ignoring the fact that we need to take care of ourselves too.

Society has made it nearly impossible for us to feel that we should put ourselves first. HOW??? All our lives, from a very young age, we are taught that to put ourselves first is completely selfish. I am thankful that somehow I no longer do that. Somewhere along the way, after being a surety for some asshole who didn't deserve it, losing over 10 grand to "help" him, among other things. (Just a prime example). I was bitter about it for a while; now? I just take it as a life lesson and carry on.

Today, I have a few people who I would drop everything to be by their side. No matter what life is throwing at me, I'd be there in a heartbeat. I guess what I am trying to get at is sometimes saying "NO" is absolutely necessary... for your own sanity and peace of mind. 

If there is one thing I wish people could take away from this blurb today it is this...

People who are always up your ass asking for things, consistently needing, but never there when you need it; or flat out disappear when you're looking for a shoulder... they are NOT friends. They are leeches/vampyres. They don't give a rat's ass about you. Yes, you will feel initially guilty for not doing as they ask; but in the long run you will feel vindicated. You will see their true colours ~ They were never a friend; so by them disappearing from your life, it's one less burden to bear. Get me???

This is where I am always saying, being an empath is a blessing and a curse. Life would be so much more simple if we didn't care so deeply. All I can say to end this off is I am going to protect those I love from people taking advantage of them any more. They aren't your puppet. They are not your bank, your punching bag, your chauffeur, their home is not a flop house. 

Basically they are not yours to lay all your problems on. Their shoulders are their own, and you have no right to place all your shit on them. I am here to make sure it doesn't happen any more. See, I don't care if that makes me a bitch, or whatever you choose to call me. You are NOT my concern, and your opinion of me, is not my business. Go fight and deal with your own crap; leave my people alone!!!

Stay safe. Stay warm. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, Be LOVED!!!

~ Phoenix

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