Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

  Page 184 of 366. Hi Lovies. Happy Sunday Funday!!! What's everyone up to this weekend?  I know here it is a National Holiday; (we are SUPPOSED to be celebrating this Canada, this great (please note the sarcasm here!!!), nation of ours). I don't think a hell of a lot of us are celebrating the day as it is meant to be, but we are taking the "no work, but we're getting paid" deal. LOL It's been a rather quiet day, although I gotta admit, I only crawled out of bed a couple hours ago. It's a beautiful thing falling into such a deep sleep, there could be an earthquake and I wouldn't budge :) I have been using my RSO sparingly, but as I might have mentioned...  I whacked my belly pretty good on Friday, and I am now paying for it. Not too stable on my feet, thankfully I am surrounded by people who are keeping an eye on me, making sure I don't get too familiar with all the walls and floors, in this damn building. I cannot believe we start July tomorrow. I...

  I said I wasn't, but I fkn lied.... get over it! Holy fk I am in such a rage.... this one is gonna hit a lot of controversy as well as I am putting a TRIGGER WARNING because there will be a hell of a lot of cussing. I cannot contain my rage in this one as I have been on both sides of the tracks!!! I am going to post the link first, so you can get a glimpse into why I am soooooo cheesed right now... HOMELESSNESS MADE ILLEGAL Go on then... I don't even know where to start with my rant on this topic. Like... WOOOOOW!!! I want to start with the fact that I am sick and fkn tired of people constantly saying all these people who are displaced and homeless are drug addicts or alcoholics. No they are not. I will concede and say, yes, a lot of them have addictions or mental health concerns but I really hope those of you who are making fun of them are taking a good hard look at yourselves and those around you.  1. Be very grateful you have never faced addiction yourself 2. Be thankful ...

  Page 183 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. It's the weekend, and here in Canada, it is the second official long weekend of the summer... we are celebrating Canada Day on July 1st; although I can speak for most Canadians when I say, this country is in such an upheaval, and other than enjoying a day off from work, I don't really know anyone who wants to celebrate the country because of the current state it is in thanks to the useless government!!! I didn't make any real plans for the weekend because I don't really feel the need to get out of the house as I spent most of the day and evening outside yesterday; either shopping, or sitting outside shooting the shyt. I have good days and I have bad days... although it seems like the past couple weeks have been a bit harder than usual, yesterday seemed to be okay... at least, until I brainfarted and ended up hurting myself... UGH!!! Yah, I pulled a stupid move without even thinking about it. I went grocery shopping last night, and...

  Hello Lovies. It is 11:45pm. I think this is probably one of the latest entries I have done in a long time. I am not sure how long the blurb is going to be, as I am physically, mentally, and  emotionally exhausted. It's the end of the month and I had to do some grocery shopping, which has been a bit challenging for me the past few months.  As you know, I am not a shopper. I dislike crowds. I dislike busyness and I cannot tolerate the unknown... know what I mean??? I actually went online today, and made my first purchase through this app called instacart, where you have your own personal shopper... yah, it is a great privilege to have; but I am a bit anal when it comes to my food. I kinda don't want others picking my food out for me.  I am very finnicky when it comes to my food; especially fresh produce and meats... Prime example... most people love their bacon to be rather on the fatty side; me??? I purposely grab the less sodium bacon as it is much meatier. I pref...

  Page 181 of 366. Hi Lovies. I do apologies that I have left another 10 pages of this trip around the sun blank... and to be quite honest, they were pretty blank. I have been sleeping most of the time away. I am not complaining; I seem to be healing a bit and have been getting out to my sister's and sit outside for a bit, here and there, but that is pretty much my life right now. I don't want to complain because it could and has been so much worse. I will take my blessings when they come... THANK YOU UNIVERSE :) So, yesterday was a bit of an interesting day... if it was even yesterday. Please forgive me if I am getting my days mixed up; that is what happens when I use RSO for any extended period of time; plus my regular brain fog on top of that LOL. Anywho... I was sitting outside, enjoying the fairly cool weather, well cool compared to what we have been dealing with as of late... (Please stop calling us the "Great White North" when the SOUTH gets MORE snow than we d...

  Page 171 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. It looks like the first massive heatwave from summer of 2024 is upon us; and I ain't liking it. I am not one who likes the heat, well at least, not this muggy, humid heat... If I have to endure heat, let it be a dry heat, or on land that is at the waterfront, preferably ocean or sea-side. I am happy for all those who get to enjoy the activities they love, when the weather is like this; since the time is so limited here, but why can't we just have average temperatures like high teens to low twenties (I myself am quite content at 17 or 18).... jumping the way we are right now from 18 to 45 C with humidex is deadly for many people.  It also brings on all kinds of crazy weather patterns. I don't complain about the thunderstorms because well, you all know how I feel about them... Its the insane winds and unpredictable ones that come in, bearing hail stones and extremely damaging tornadoes... Yah, those can just stay the hell away from me...

  Page 170 of 366. Good Afternoon all my Lovies. I am not going to get into all the sentimentals of today, in this blurb because I'd rather acknowledge the good in life first... To start, I want to wish George a Happy Heavenly Father's Day. (I am thinking of my sister and brother as well... Love you guys). I would like to wish my adopted dad "Dad", a good one too. I hope he gets to enjoy the day surrounded by the ones he loves. Sitting in his garden, sipping on his tea, on a well deserved relaxing day. (I'd say he deserves it as Dad is now 85). I would like to wish a great day to the fathers of my kids.  I'd like to especially wish my son a Happy Father's Day. I hope he's getting spoiled by his sweet lil girl. Enjoy the moments, my boy... for they pass far too quick!!! Happy Father's Day to mybest friend, my brothers (FamILY), my siblings (adopted and biological), my in-laws, the men who are in my life who are fur-dads... or those who are dads to t...

  Page 169 of 366. Good Day Lovies. It is Saturday, the tempuratures are up, the skies are awesome. I wanna say enjoy the dog days of summer; but the season isn't technically even here yet. As you can see, I have quite a few blank pages in my blog again this year... less than last year, so I guess I am going stay positive and say I am on the growing side still :) I am going to do a bit of a rant today, because I am probably observing something most wouldn't even know existed, unless they have similar upbringings as I did... Y'all know that I am adopted (no shocking secret there)... I guess you could say I have seen the system from both sides; but that is not really what I am going to discuss today. I want to talk about how messed up our world is. People talk about being sexist and being labeled a certain way.... I HATE LABELS!!! Anyways, someone please explain to me why is it that we have national biological mother's day and then mother's day the following day; but ...

Page 167 of 366. Good Afternoon all my lovies. I feel like I am getting to my blog later and later every day. it's not that I have a ton of things I shouldn't be doing, (Note the sarcasm there!!!).  I just can't be doing them yet and I have absolutely ZERO oooomphh to get it done. Part of me just wants to get up and do a complete heave -over and just toss pretty much in the huge garbage bin outside, but I know I cannot do that, because some of it is important papers and other crap like that. It's mostly having to move heavy furniture from one room to another so that the master bedroom can get the renovations it needs, and I'd like to repaint that.  The spare bedroom, I would like to overhaul too, but for now I will keep the 3 bigger dressers and deep freeze in there. Once I settle on that, I'd like to paint that room too. The bathroom and kitchen need to be done; but I already know our master bedroom and the living room will be the same colours. I tend to overwh...

  Page 166 or 366.  Good Evening Lovies.  Today, slipped by like a pebble skims the water. If I had not just looked it up, I would have had NO idea it was Wednesday.  Monday, I thought was Friday, and now somehow I missed Tuesday completely. These brainfogs are so annoying for yourself, I can only imagine what they are like for people around me. I know those who know me, know that it does happen and they help me get through it, but for someone who was such an advant speaker and a lover of lanuages, as this progressed, it has been breaking me to depths people have zero clue about.  I am simply grateful I still have speech and am able to write things down. I give huge props to those who use ASL (American sign Language) , becaue even though I know the basicas, it is damn challenging!!! Kudos to you who use that as your every day way of comminication. There is lterally nothing to write about my day because it has been sooooo dreary. I hope to be up and alert enough ...

  Page 163 of 366. Good afternoon my Lovies. It has been a rather sluggish kind of day. I really wasn't going to drag my ass out of bed, but I felt I could at least get up and write an entry, or two. I switched my blood thinner injections to pill form, and I have went from 18,000 units to 10mg, so it HAS been reduced excessively. I look like a bruised up deflated football and it's painful.  Let's hope this is a good thing, although I am already extremely nauseous and feeling pretty wonky.  There are so many more cons than pros to this medication, the only plus I honestly see with me taking it is this...  It's gonna be easier for medical professionals to stop me from bleeding out, that stroking out, right?!! I know people don't want me to be speaking negatively, and I am not in a negative space; I am just being upfront and realistic about my health. We all hope that things will settle and I can get a bit of a reprieve from sooo much at once; but when has life ever be...

  Good Evening all my Lovies. I hope you had a good weekend, and were able to make some great memories. Remember it is about the time we spend together, not the money, place or expense... they most precious thing we could give another being is our time... Please do not ever take that for granted. It's a beautiful gift that is priceless and the most treasured thing on this earthly plane. Like I have mentioned before, this has been a weekend, even the last week or so, it has been a time of reflection. I have been tossing more baggage out of my life... including more "negative Nancys", as I just would like to live a peaceful, drama free, love filled life... is that sooooo much to ask for??? Like, really??? Some of us have been carrying heavy loads for far too long; and just because we have made it look like an art form, at this point, doesn't mean it's easy. FFS!!! The one beautiful thing that I have been enjoying this weekend, is there hasn't really been an...

  Page 162 of 366. Good Day Lovies. I hope you all got to enjoy some good weather today, whatever that means for you :). It's been a relatively calm weekend; mind you I may have been a lil "high" over the weekend.  I do not care how people judge me. When I don't drink, don't do any kind of drugs, never have, and don't even touch a cigarette; when I take my RSO (Rick Simpson Oil), TRUST ME, when I tell you I absolutely needed the pain relief. I don't take it very often, but when I do... it's never a "light" decision for me... please don't ask me to get into the ins and outs of my views here, thank you!!! What is everyone doing today? I know most, who can, are out and about today; catching their knees to the breeze with the riding season upon us. I send out nothing but my loving and positive vibes, wherever you are going... may you arrive there, and back home safely; and with some great memories. Stay blessed!!! I am kind of in a reflective...

  Page 157 of 366. Hi everyone. It seems I have not written in my blog in a few days. I do have to apologize; time has been at a stand still for me, or more like I lost a few days.... literally!!! I do not have any idea what has happened between the 1st and today. This happens to me from time to time, and to be frank, it is very frightening to me. Nothing could have been "too off" as I know I had checked in with those involved with my safety plan.  I know I packed away my meat order from the butcher, into the freezer because the meat is all there. I must have gone shopping at some point because I have other stuff in the house that you can't get at the butcher's... so WTF???!!! When I forget things that I have been doing for several days, it freaks me out. It's like my brain kicks into auto-drive and the rest of the brain literally shuts down. I am racking my brain now trying to remember even the remotest thing, anything that might trigger a memory, but I got nothi...

  Page 153 of 366. Hi Lovies. I hope you all are having this awesome weather, we are having here... I won't put a damper on this hot weather you all like, and say what I prefer. I will hide behind my closed curtains and enjoy my air conditioned home, sitting in front of my screen, trying to decide if I am going to attempt to write in both my personal and my crime blog today, or simply not push myself and just write about my day and thoughts only. It's been a day, and although it may only be starting for some, it already feels like bedtime for me; and I already took a 2 hour nap earlier. I had set my alarm for 6:30 this morning, as I wanted to get my shopping out of the way. I was smart, in the sense, that I purchased a meat order from the butcher, so I didn't need to buy all of that from the grocery store, instead I just needed juices, pop, butter, milk... stuff like that.  As you all know, I prefer to get to the stores before it gets too busy, as I can't handle when th...