Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Good Day my Lovies. I am resting now. There hasn't been too much going on, other than waiting to see my primary/family doctor. Today is a bit of a rough one, but it's not dampering my mood. It is peaceful, just cuddling with Karma and Draco, lol when they don't got the zoomies. This isn't going to be a big blurb, as I don't have anything major to write... actually I do, but I don't play childish games with crackheads, alcoholics, etc. The best thing for me and my life, is to keep doing what I love and ignore the pissants. Sounds perfect to me!!! I hope you all have an awesome day. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well and Be loved. ~ Phoenix

Page 208 of 366. Good Evening all you beautiful souls. How has your week been this far??? I can't believe it is Friday tomorrow already. As you can guess from the title of this entry, I have lost a block of time again.  Have I mentioned how annoying that is???  If I didn't know any better, I'd swear I have dementia or am in the early stages of Alzheimer. I can explain examples... I can read off my health care number, which is 9 digits long, plus 2 letters at any given moment. I can give you my childhood phone number. I can tell you most birthdays of all my family members, biological, adopted and my friends' bdays; anniversaries too.  I can remember things distinctly from decades ago. What I cannot do is remember someone I met just five minutes ago. I can be mid sentence with someone, my brain pauses and I feel like an idiot because I will have to ask them what we were talking about to see if it can jog my memory enough for me to finish what I had to tell them. I have ma...

  Page 205 of 366. Hi Lovies. Oddly for a Monday, I am in a decent mood... it is Monday, right??? Don't burst my bubble, if I am wrong LOL... I am not entirely sure what has put me in this headspace, but I will take it.  I mean, I know certain events that have transpired in the past 24 to 48 hours that have not only shown me quite a bit of my own personal growth, (shown by the trust in me), but it has definitely shown me that my heart, head and gut are all aligned in their senses. As you know, I am not one to say names, and this is another blurb in which that rule applies to. I CAN reveal that I kept to the promise I made to myself that I would take time for myself to heal after my last relationship.  I really was first, not going to project the BS that went on from that one into a new relationship; and I think for the most part, I have been doing okay on that part. I am human after all and I slip from time to time. Here is where the personal growth comes in. I acknowledg...

Page 205 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. Today is gonna be, and has been a bed day.  It has been a rather weird weekend for me. Most of you don't know where I live, but to put it simple; they claim this place is the ghetto. I giggle when that is said because this concrete jungle is nothing compared to the one I came from.  Sure, there are shootings and stabbings; but that happens in EVERY big city and if you say that it doesn't... you're full of shyt!!! Anyways, that is not what I was trying to talk about... I live in a big apartment building that is 18 floors (technically 17, because you know, #13 seems to be a taboo number). Do you wanna know WHY most buildings have this??? I have to sort of laugh at the reasoning because I am of Pagan beliefs, (a "witch" if you need to give me a label). I strongly feel that the number 13 is lucky and a very important part of life. But let me tell you why buildings are built this way... It all is because of triskaidekaphobia ... ...

  Page 204 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. It is a beaut out there today. My thoughts are with those who are out riding today, whether it is just to get out for some wind therapy or for a charity run or a memorial run... Keep the shiny side up and the rubber side down!!! Stay save y'all. I am going to apologize now because my mind is a clusterfuck today; I had an "episode" yesterday, and my brain is fuzzy; I am not clear on a lot that occurred in the past 24 hours, maybe even 48 hours. I don't tend to tell my loved ones these things because they will only worry more than they already are; and nothing can really be done to alter what is going on. I DO recall a few things from this past week, at least I think it was this week... In national news, President (45) Donald J. Trump was shot. There is a lot of horseshit to sypher through to try to get to the truth; but all I can say, is if he is pissing some people off THIS much, he is DEFINITELY doing something right. A lot o...

Good Evening Lovies. I hope the day has treated you well. I know we are hitting the mid-evening hours, and I am just finally trying to settle my nerves and relax enough to attempt to write a decent blog entry.  Trust, when I say I am TRYING my hardest to stay on a more peaceful path... Lemme tell you; this is NO easy feat for me.  I gotta admit, I am actually quite proud of myself and how I dealt with everything that happened the past few days...  So without any further adieu, let's begin, shall we??? You will have to bear with me, as I have lost a few days, and I could very well be getting dates and moments mixed up; I am embarrassed to admit this, because I do NOT consider myself a dumb person by ANY means. One thing weighing on my heart is the amount of deaths that are happening right now. I am hearing of at least one or two deaths daily; some I am related to, or connected to, while others were celebrities, (people I've watched since I was a child, so they kinda felt l...

  Page 200 of 366. I cannot believe it has been a week since I have written anything on either blogs. It makes me feel lazy, even though I know I can only go at the pace my body will allow me.  Everyone knows I LOVE the rain, but the havoc it wreaks on my body is indescribable.  Besides the physical pain, there has been quite a bit of emotional pain with loved ones and family members passing away in the past few weeks.  It is like life simply cannot give me a break... NO, I am not being narcissistic because I know that life is slamming most people these days; but I am not privy on sharing other people's stories, nor do I know what every single person in the world is going through. All I can do, is send out positive vibes, light and love to everyone who needs them. This morning, I made the decision that I needed to get outside and do a spiritual cleansing as well as some grounding; fortunately the weather cooperated. We have had beautiful rainfall pretty much all day ...

Page 193 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I am afraid today's entry isn't going to be one of those bubbly blurbs people like to read. If ppl haven't noticed, I have been having a time of it lately.  I don't want to say everything has been shitty and tough, because there have been some bright spots in areas that were total darkness; the problem is now.... there isn't even those bright spots left. People who have swelled my heart and filled it will love, have slowly dissipated the very emotion I had just learned to accept again.  Literally EVERY fkn time I open my heart even a crack to share my love, and my life with... I end up getting shit on... and people wonder why I don't stay in one place for very long.  I have been living here for 20 years, and I am really starting to feel like I need to take flight and get out of dodge.  As I said yesterday, I was born a nomad... I shall leave this plane a nomad; and strangely I am okay with that. People have continually sho...

  Page 192 of 366. Good Day Lovies.... I hope the weekend treated you well, and hopefully you'll just ease back into the work week; and not get body slammed the way I am being tossed around right now...  If ever there were a time I wanted to pack my bags and just go on one of my spontaneous trips.... NOW WOULD BE THE TIME, FOR SURE!!! Maybe it is just the Monday Blues or maybe it is something far deeper than that. I can feel myself slowly slipping into the black abyss again; and I honestly don't have the strength nor the will to pull myself back out. I know a lot of you don't want to hear it, but have you heard about MAID (Medical Assisatnce in Death)??? I know there is a lot of controversy on it, and the ONLY reason I have not gone that route yet is because I know how it will effect others. I had hoped beyond hope I wouldn't even put this on the table as a possibility, but here we are.... time to put on our big people panties on, and make some real life decisions... PE...

Page 186 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I hope the weekend treated you well, so much so, that at this point you are either dragging your ass through the workday with a massive hangover, or you are milking your hangover as you enjoy your summer vacation... either way, may it be a good one!!! Well, me being the bonehead I am, remembered I had a doctor's appt this morning, but completely brainfarted that my bank card is at my sister's place.... unfortunately the cab was waiting and i was sh!t outta luck. I sent the cab on his way and already felt extremely irritated that I was missing a rather important meeting with my family doctor. Thankfully I walked back into the building to see my friend, and he was not only able to take me to the appointment, but he patiently waited for me to get back out, for a ride home. (Have I mentioned how blessed I am???) You'd swear it is a monday today. Like, what's with all the bullshit happening on a tuesday??? Cut it out... Just because we h...

  Page 185 of 366. Hi y'all. I would say a new day is upon us, but we are clearly in the middle of the afternoon, so yah... there's that!!! LOL  The weather is definitely cooperating for those who want to have bbqs or are out on their bikes. I implore people to please be extra vigilant on the roads, please keep your eyes open and watch out for everyone out on two (or three) wheels. I have a ton of loved ones and family members out on motorcycles and we all want to see every one of them return home to us. Today has brought some great joy to me. I am not exactly sure what has made my heart feel the way I am feeling today; but I am just gonna run with this because it's been a while since I have felt this "decent".  I was outside, enjoying the weather, although let's say "swamp ass" season is in full swing (you know wtf I am talking about FK LOL)...  I just want to have a good day and let it be what it is before i got to face reality again in the morn. I...