Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

  Page 168 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How goes it? It's FriYay!!! What are you all up to this weekend??? I know the CFL (Canadian Football League aka Children's Football League (JK) season has begun... time to piss off my neighbours and hang up my team's flag...  FYI my team is the "mortal enemy" of the team for the city I live in!!! LOL I gotta say, the weather outside is "rude" again. It is supposed to rain overnight, and I am tempted to sleep on my balcony. Life has been fairly quiet today. We managed to get the balcony clean, my zero gravity chair is set up, and laying on that is like heaven, especially when I am in pain. Pain and heat have been irritating me, so I have been somewhat of a crusty bitch. Let's just say, "It's been a day." and just go with that. I hope y'all had a smooth day, and may your weekend plans be awesome. Stay safe. Stay cool. Be well. Be blessed. Most of all, be LOVED!!! Also, please remember if you a...

  Page 167 of 365. Happy Thor's Day Lovies. I, for one, am happy, it is slightly cooler than it has been for the past week or so. I am NOT one that could survive in the heat. I don't know, the only thing I find enjoyable about this season, is camping and fishing.  If you're stuck in the concrete jungle but a country person at heart, then this makes for a miserable time. It's this time of year, I want to pack up my stuff and hit the road...  I have a gypsy soul. I have such a thirst for wandering, it far precedes everything in my life (well, except for one person).  If it was in the slight way feasible, I'd pack up the sentimental shyt and, take to the road, only stopping to wherever life leads us. I ultimately want to live off the grid ~ life off the land.  For now, I am simply enjoying what is. The universe has been sending such odd signs lately, but ones that all lead to the same thing; the good and the tough ones. Yah, some days it feels like a serious kick t...

  Page 163 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. Sunday Funday is upon us... the weather is just a "RUDE" ass today... with humidex it is 45 C outside; and it is only 1:36pm my time!!! (Swamp ass anyone??? I am hoping by the end of this blurb I will have a title for it, otherwise, it will simply be what page we are in this 6th chapter of my current book. I feel that a lot of my blurbs lately have been about a lot of negative things happening in, and around my life. Today, I think maybe I should put  up something more uplifting and share some of the positives in my life. My health has it days, so that is nothing out of the norm. I have medical appointments all the time; I don't want to complain because doctors, specialists and surgeons are FINALLY on the same page, and there is hope for the future. Life has given me a refresher course on why I had such strong boundaries up... People tend to look at boundaries as a bad thing, when truthfully, they are only there to guide people to...

  Before I am going to write all of my own thoughts and feelings, I am going to share words that were spoken from one of our ancestors... some that I feel are pretty accurate for this moment in my life. "I cannot be a traitor, for I owe him NO allegiance..." For those of you who have been following my journey, you know the struggles I am having with family ~ both biological and adopted. I have never been one to shy away from my personal story; and I am NOT about to start now. I will continue to keep my policy of not revealing names, but that is ONLY out of the goodness of MY heart at this point... YOU NEED TO BE AWARE OF THAT!!! I OWE YOU NOTHING!!! There have been a lot of issues that have come forth with my biological family. One, as you know, my incubator ended up being quite a sinister woman. I don't loathe many people; but her, I can honestly put at the top of the list. I won't use the word "hate", because that takes effort and she is not worth it. It i...

  Page 162 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I had to take a few days to myself before I could get behind the keyboard and attempt to put into words how my past week has been.  It has not been an easy one when it comes to emotions... my mental health took a serious dive; and my fibro has me in a major flare up... other than that, life is peaches!!! The first stab came when, (read my May 15th entry called "We Want Your Thoughts!!!") I called my dad for Father's Day., and as you can already guess... my mother picked up the phone. I kinda knew something was up because my dad would have definitely answered, knowing it was Father's Day, and I didn't want to talk to that wench. It was almost like I could hear the smirk on her face as she told me he was in bed, because he wasn't feeling good. My dumb ass asked about the surgery and what had they decided. She told me he had the surgery, and has been sick ever since. I snapped!!! I don't know why I ever expect anythin...

  Page 154 of 365. Hi Lovies. I know this blurb is going to cause conflict, kind of like the world outside our doors...  I am just going to voice my opinion on the subject.  I know people will agree and vehemently disagree with it; this is the great thing about our Charter of Rights and your Constitution...  My freedom of speech is still free, and I am going to continue using this platform, and my mouth to speak my mind. Let's dive into the riots happening in the United States of America... People are going to be on one side, or the other... I feel I am sort of neutral. So many people are against Donald Trump, that they cannot open their eyes and see the bigger picture.  (Please remember I am Canadian. I can openly admit that I may be way off with my views, but I am going to say people are very hypocritical if they are against him for what is happening in various cities in America, when he's not the first, nor the worst for doing the deportation of illegals). I ...

Page 151 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. Please accept my apologies, as I am running on very little to no sleep in the past 4 or 5 days now. My mind has been all over the place.  Anxiety got the best of me yesterday, and I could not go to my medical appointment... when this happens I get very disappointed in myself, Catch-22!!! Today, is a bit of a better day, although I desperately need to sleep... I did a stupid thing yesterday. I turned on the news channel; and immediately I was saying "WTF?" There is no way to explain how fucked up the world has become. People are being deported from the United States, by the tens of thousands, at a time. This is bringing on protests... and they are NOT peaceful ones. Trump has called in the Marines and the National Guard. It looks like there is going to be a very tense confrontation in Los Angeles, today or in the very near future. The debate people are having now, is whether Trump has the legal right to be calling the military in. After ...

  Page 147 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It's FriYay, inspite medical appointments, it has been a decent day. The weather is great for those who like the heat. I'll just stick to my dungeon (LOL), I love my bedroom pitch black and ice cold. Anyways, let's get onto the topic I briefly wanted to talk about; I feel it already gets enough attention, and it sickens me!!!  I don't know the people's names, nor do I care to look them up; because honestly, they are NOT worth remembering. Anyone who has access to social media, or any ragmag (online), you would have read about these women who keep doing these challenges, trying to one up the other. It's truly disturbing!!! How the hell do any of these women think what they are doing is respectable??? One sleeping with 919 in one day; causing another woman determined to beat that record... she slept with 1057 men in 12 hours. What did the last guy do ~ grab a rope as he fell in??? If this is the new norm, I fear for the co...

  Page 145 of 365. Good Day Lovies. I hope those who love hot weather are enjoying today. I don't like the heat. I am 100% a winter (late autumn) baby.  Snow gives me joy... especially when it is freshly falling, and I am out in the country. It's like a blanket of serenity, silencing the outside world. PEACEFUL!!!  Today, it is "rude" outside... LOL I think it's around 34 degrees celcius (with the humidex). Gross!!! It has been a quiet day. I am doing a bit of reflecting on some events that just happened; kinda kicking myself in the ass over me having a big heart and once again getting the short end of the stick. I am not going to reveal names, but if they read this blog, they'll know I am speaking about them... I had felt guilty about a situation people were jammed in, and I did what I always do; I help in every way I can to make sure they don't suffer. I helped, in seeking justice for them too... then they did me dirty!!! I kept the situation in the back...

  Welcome to the 6th month of 2025. WOW, I cannot believe that we are already this far into the year of retribution!!! I am finding myself using words that are fairly foreign to me. I am not saying this as a bad thing, at all... the words "peace", "happy", "loved", "wanted" are not things I could usually associate with me nor my life; but now I can say them with confidence.  I can say them without fear of someone, or something trying to destroy it. I am THAT secure in what is happening in and around me, to say it out loud.  Fuck if we had a mountain around us (and I don't mean the pissant mole hill they call a "mountain" here in the Hammer, neither)... I am talking about Whistler Mountain... I'd be shouting it from the top. I have come to the point that I am at peace with things that I never had control over, but cried about for years and years, feeling guilty like somehow certain things fell on my shoulder, even as a child. It ...

  Page 142 of 365. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hope it is a Sunday Funday for y'all. It has been a quiet day thus far, and I am enjoying it. I am just relaxing, as I am back to medical appointments tomorrow morning. I am fortunate enough that I only have two this week. I am kinda dreading the one tomorrow because it's with my family doctor and I have this gut feeling he is going to say I need to go see (yet again), another new specialist... fingers crossed, that I am wrong!!! I can't really complain about life these days. I spoke to my son the other day... I cannot wait to see him. Do you have any idea what it is like to not been able to hug your child (adult, or not) in 8 years??? It has put me in the best of moods, and I am not letting anything nor anyone take this feeling from me. I had a chance to speak with Darkling (my younger brother), for the first time in quite a while, I always love when we get time to talk. He is pretty busy with his paranormal business and I am ...