Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Page 199 of 365. Good afternoon Lovies... rather, Good Evening!!! Today has been a lil cooler, so absolutely more bearable.  I spent most of the day in bed, as my body fails me... unfortunately that leads me to wander deep in my head, going to places I don't like traveling to. Just when I began to feel like I don't need to worry about things, that fkn little voice in my head reminds me of all the rotten trickery I've already endured. Trust me, when I say, it's not a place I wish for anyone... even my worst enemy. No one warns you that healthy love would feel like a threat, not because anything is wrong BUT because nothing is. When you are used to surviving in chaos, peace feels like a set up. Now is the time for the forever life lesson of how to UNLEARN the art of self sabotaging... something I have perfected in my 50 trips around the sun!!! I sometimes feel like I am stepping into familiar territory, but the terrain has completely changed; if that makes sense?!! I am d...

  Page 198 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy Thor's Day!!! I hope you all are doing well. It's been a "rough" couple weeks, I am not gonna lie.  This recent full moon really threw me for a loop... The first one in a very long time; oddly it affected sooooo many people I know. It wasn't just the full moon, it's those pesky planets... six were in alignment, and right after the Buck moon, there were 7... Holy Hannah!!! I honestly think, this is the first day in a very long time I can take a full breathe and know that things are okay. Today is just a day of peace. I don't like that I have been neglecting my writing because it's the only therapy that seems to really work for my soul.  I haven't been doing my crime blog at all.... which frustrates me, because it's one thing that fascinates me. I love diving into the "behind the scenes"... the mind behind the crime, the forensics, the trial, etc.; but more often than not, I am displeased ...

  Page 196 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I cannot believe how much I have been slacking on my writing, especially when I have soooooo much stuff to talk about... I have mentioned how we are having all kinds of extreme weather lately, and the cases of flooding has been insane. Most of the people I know, see this as a distraction to what is really happening in the world... I tend to agree; but it seems others are not ready to hear it. It's honestly like the deaf are leading the blind 🙈🙉🙊 On a more personal level the past week has been more of a whirlwind than anything. I am not going to write about some of the incidences because some people just don't deserve my energy. The only thing I am going to say about the situation is this... for all the people involved, my loyalty is with one person, and one person only. This is where your first mistake was. People lie. People are users and people are abusers. The one thing people don't understand is you don't turn your back o...

Page 190 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I know. I know. I keep saying I am going to keep up on my writing, then I get distracting by life, or my health forces me to put this aside for a while. It sucks, but it is my reality! The weather continues to be as rude as ever... the world continues to be struck with misfortune; whether it be "natural" disasters, explosions or accidents; everyone is dealing with one thing or another.  These are definitely trying times with many people on edge, most of the time. Something has got to give... and SOON! I don't want to make this blurb about my health today... I want to put out all my love, thoughts and positive vibes to everyone who is suffering today. I am thinking of all the people affected by this unprecedented flooding happening.  (Sorry, you can NOT tell me, this is natural. I don't buy it!!!) Chicago is being hit right now with torrential rains. Streets have become rivers with a deluge of five inches of rain in the span of a...

  Page 183 of 365.  Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you all doing, now that summer is officially in full swing? I have been faring pretty well, at least until today. I woke up feeling lethargic, so it wasn't a fun morning; then I had a "mini" seizure...  I say "mini" because it didn't last long, and it was a focal awareness seizure. Quite simply put, I have these seizures quite often, I don't usually have twitching or tremors, although I DO get those every so often. I end up staring off in space, so to speak.  I am most of the time, fully aware of what is going on around me; but I am not able to speak, or properly communicate for the duration of the seizure and for a while afterwards... other times, I have them and am completely unaware of it. I won't remember having one, and my memory loss will be very bad at that time.  Those who are around me will be able to notice if I have had them in my sleep because I will be stuttering, and struggling for word...