Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Page 302 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. It is Hump Day... May you all make the best of it LOL.  Hell, I can't make any pleasantries today. I am rather ticked off about those in and around... Not those in my circle and bubble, but about some people I DO care about. When you live in the environment I live in (meaning a large apartment building I do, with a few hundred people, there are bound to be a few biddies); this place isn't any different.  You know how we always use the phrase.. " oh, if these walls could talk!!"... well, here, you don't need to imagine it. It's the daily reality!!! I used to giggle about walking out my door, and excitedly anticipating to learn all the new things in my life... and even more so, the things I have done!!! Well, it has rather gotten "old", and the BS is turning people's lives upside down. The things I am hearing are just insane, and it is taking everything in me to not confront these people. When people have nothi...

  Page 297 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope the day treats you well. I woke up at the ass crack of dawn today... not sure why; but here I am!!! I am going to try to keep this entry brief, as it is something that weighs heavily on me heart... I am a fun loving, open-minded, but very opinionated kinda woman. I love with all of my heart. I am kind (too kind, according to those closest to me). I am a free spirit who tends to give people chances when they clearly don't deserve it. Then comes the other side of me... I have depression. I have social anxiety. I have cPTSD. I have panic attacks. Most days, I am confident about myself, but there are some days I think and feel the worst about myself, for absolutely no reason. I get triggered at the smallest thing, or words sometimes.... and it can take me days to process through it (That is my ADHD though).  I had to write all this to get to my point... I know, on my good days, I am easy to love. I am easy to talk to. I am the one upl...

Hey. I told you I was going to write about something else today. The other day, I was watching the last few episodes of "Dynasty" (the newer one). I had forgotten the end of the series, so when I saw and heard the last episode, I had a meltdown, and even now, a few days later; my heart is still hurting!!! This is something that would be so minuscule to others; but deeply affects me. .. I am pretty sure, most of you have watched the movie "Annie". I am talking about the original one from 1982, with Carol Burnett, Tim Curry, Albert Finney, Aileen Quinn, etc. Sure, it is a sweet, feel-good, great ending kind of movie... for MOST people. For me??? It is a stark reminder of my own personal life. LET ME EXPLAIN!!! As you all are well aware of, if you have been following my blog, I am adopted; I was taken in as a foster child, into the same family who adopted me. I have a rather difficult (to put it mildly) relationship with my mother. Every year, on my birthday, my mother...

Page 296 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope all is well with you; or at least the best it can be for you. I have been away from the laptop for a few days now, really stuck in my own head.  I don't like watching the news, I can't stand the way our once beautiful, free countries are completely in shambles. I am sooo tired of the stupidity and hatred that is embedded in society... hatred that is completely senseless, in my opinion. I can't handle the ignorance of people... the fact that people have genuinely pushed their agenda soooo much, that the illogical is now supposed to be common sense. Children are no longer safe, at any age, from anybody.  I live, literally, with my curtains closed, to keep the ugliness outside. I keep my circle soooo tiny because the bitterness, hatred and flip-flop mentalities of people is disheartening. Society no longer knows the meaning of truth, justice, loyalty, respect (this is a HUGE one), and love.  Everyone is out for the almighty dollar...

Page 292 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you? I hope you're having a great Sunday Funday... whether you're watching football, or just enjoying time with friends, family or loved ones.     (I stopped watching football for my own personal reasons... mostly because the league is bringing too much political and religious shit into it. I just want to watch a game... not some pansy ass bullshit. I don't care who is dating who... I hate the disrespect of the anthems and flags... Nah. I'm good. I'll stick to hockey!!!) I have been wanting to get something off my chest in the past couple weeks, but wasn't sure how to say it without sounding like a complete bitch.  I am going to try to tread lightly, even though this subject really can't be expressed delicately... it's more of a "this is how it is" kinda thing!!! I like to believe I have a good heart; at least people tell me I do. I am someone who is a "giver". I don't need to tell p...

  Wow, my brain is on overload and I have been dying to write, it's just been sooooo jumbled, I have been unable to sit down long enough to let the words fall out like verbal diarrhea. I guess today is the day, I am finally going to let some of that spill onto my keyboard... I have always felt very strongly about a relationship/friendship that has been a part of my life, for more than half my life...  (Crazy to think how long that actually is... a friendship that has endured more marriages than either of us care to count. LOL) If I am not fully transparent... I am nothing, so I am opening up and exposing my vulnerabilities here... no matter how tough we are, all of our shells have cracks. Scary, no? Being the way I grew up, you quickly learn there is no one to rely on, other than yourself... and sometimes, your own judgment is questionable. If you are lucky enough to find someone who has the same mentality, not judgmental, loves, respects, trusts and whose loyalty is never que...

Page 291 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you all are enjoying this sunny afternoon... at least, it is sunny here.  It is 22C here, which is warmer than I usually like, but our building where I reside, hasn't turned on the heat yet, so the heat is good for my Ma. That being said, I want to discuss something that has increasingly become a world issue; and it will only become frightenly worse if society, as a whole, doesn't step up and unite against our corrupt governments!!! Society, in general, has been failing pretty much everyone these past few years...  We are quickly approaching our cold season, and my city just voted on keeping 6 LEO to deal with the encampments for all the homeless. YES, it really IS that bad!!! People are constantly complaining that the homeless are destroying the city, that they are all drug addicts, etc. I beg to differ. It is quite apparent that many, many of the homeless are addicts or alcoholics. I am not condoning it; but I am also not judgme...

  Page 281 of 365. Hello Lovies... I apologize for long absence. I really don't have a major excuse for it; other than life REALLY got in the way of things.  Some acquaintances ended abruptly, while famILY bonding grew A LOT. Fragile and scattered friendships are now somewhat rebonding... we'll let you know down the line!!! My home is peaceful again... My Ma is living with me now, and my life, in general, is beautiful.  (Other than the usual grumbles... I don't have the right to complain about anything). I actually have a question, that kinda is on my mind. It is about an incident that happened, and I'd love to know others' opinion, and what would they have done, if it happened to them... Say someone that you came into the place that you were at, and was very moody, there has been a lot of tension in the past week or so; between all the people who were in the vicinity this particular time. The person who just walked in the door, made a comment that his "step da...