Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Page 264 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It's Sunday Funday. It's NFL Sunday. I hope everyone is still able to get out and enjoy the nice fall weather we are having. I am grateful for the cooler temps... I do NOT do well with heat. Today, I am sort of beating myself up, for lack of a better phrase. I know, in the past while, I have been able to stay on a pretty level keel; but shyt has been getting to me, and I have went on a bit of a downward spiral. I have some terrible PTSD in certain things, and I have thought I had that more, or less, under control... BOY, was I wrong. That damn mental disorder snuck up on me these last few weeks, and it's deeply hurt me... Yet, if I were to explain it to people, they would say it's an irrational feeling. (No, not everyone)... I am struggling expressing myself to people I trust my life with. My words aren't coming out right, It isn't a trust thing... it is that my mind is soooo twisted by what other people, and surroundings ...

  Page 261 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope you have a fabulous Thor's Day. There really isn't too much going on in my world today; all I know, is today I choose peace.  There is so much wrong with the world, that I am just going to stay in my bubble, turn on the TV and simply watch movies. I have NO desire to know what is happening outside the walls of my home.  I refuse to "adult" today!!! (Yes, I CAN get away with it... I am a "ToYs R' Us Kid). People, of course, will find this selfish, but I personally think everyone needs to shut off the world, from time to time, in order to reset their mental health and ease their troubled minds; me included. It is no secret that I cope with mental health on the regular. I keep it an open dialogue so people don't have to feel it's a taboo subject with me, nor will they be judged if they choose to open up to me. I will be your "safe space" and I believe strongly in the "four wall" policy. M...

  Page 259 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope your day went well. Today's entry is going to be rather short and a bit controversial; although, it really shouldn't be... Over the weekend, there has been soooo many messages and articles written about Charlie Kirk, and how his assassination has turned him into a martyr.  I can agree with that, in the sense, that he was murdered because of his beliefs and opinions.  I am not a Christian, and although I did NOT agree with everything he said, I had respect for him standing tall in his convictions and never wavering in his faith. I  really loved how he DID try to keep an open dialogue with everyone. He didn't simply slam others' and how they felt and what their ways were... even though he would bring his side with facts and truths that a lot of current (newer/younger) society cannot accept as reality. At the end of the day, what happened to Charlie Kirk is appalling; anyone celebrating over his death, needs to get their ...

Page 257 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. Today, I am just gonna wing it with what is on my mind.  Before I begin, I hope you all are having a great Sunday Funday.  I am sorta just chillaxing, listening to songs reminding me of my youth... roadtrips, camping trips to my favourite places... way out of the concrete jungle and into the wilderness park... where my heart always yearns to be. I have a lil thing I wanna talk about, it may seem a bit weird to talk about, considering the day and age we live in; but it something I see day-in and day-out. I understand why people feel the way they do, and I completely respect it; that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt my heart. It has been the trend for years, where people's preference is to remain single; whether it has been from a bad break up or a death. I am from the Gen X era, and it seems to be really prominent in our age group, (It may be in other eras too, but I can only speak of my own).... I don't know what it is for everyone, s...

  Page 256 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you are enjoying your Saturday. I hope you all are in good health and able to enjoy these last few weeks of summer. I can't say I am complaining, it isn't that hot out and the sun isn't glaring down with any excessive heat. I don't really have a specific topic on my mind, that I urgently need to write about.  I AM going to discuss something that I feel is important to discuss, and should remain a top priority in our society; but somehow always seems to fall to the bottom of the list, as people sweep it under the rug; or feel that it isn't really a significant concern to our every day lives. MEN'S MENTAL HEALTH I write this as a mother, a sister, a daughter, a niece and as a wife. I am really tired of hearing the saying, "Suck it up!" when it comes to boys and men, when they express how they feel. This mentality has been embedded into their brains, since the beginning of time, and I am one, who is strongl...

Page 254 of 365. Good Morning Lovies.  I doubt my words will do justice for everything that we are all thinking and feeling this morning; but I will give it my best shot. Today, many of us, sit quietly and reflect on the unimaginable damage that was caused in Manhattan 24 years ago today. Over 3,000 people lost, in an event that shook the world.  To this day, many will never forget where they were standing when the first plane hit the Twin Towers, and a nightmare unfolded before our very eyes!!! The fear, the anguish, the anger and loss that united most of the world; at least for a moment.  A day the world literally felt like it stood still, I know it was eeriely quiet for me and my family, as we lived an a flight path for Toronto Pearson International Airport, and there wasn't a single plane flying for a day, or two. Last night, we all witnessed a shocking assassination of someone who was very influential to the newer generation. He was controversial in the sense where h...

Page 250 of 365. Good Evening Lovies. I hope you all had a great weekend. The weather has been decent, I suppose. I am looking forward to the cooler days, the changing of the leaves, and the crisp breeze... along with the scent of sweet apple cider :)  Yah, I am NOT a "pumpkin spice" kinda anything, if I am being totally honest!!! I have got to admit, a few things have happened recently that are bouncing around in my head, and I feel I need to express them... at least, in the best way I possibly can. I have been in love with someone for a very long time. We have a great relationship, on all the levels that consist on making one so. We are very open with each other. We don't shy away from talking about difficult or awkward subjects. We share our goals and troubles. There is NO lack of communication, nor comprehension. We have the same goals and are looking at the future as one. We share the same values and morals.  Basically, to put it in a nutshell, we are two peas in a p...

Page 249 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I would advise you to grab a drink, kick back, and sit tight... this one is gonna be a bit of a wild ride... and a lot of people may be offended by what I am going to write about; but who would I be, if I just kept my mouth shut and complied with everyone else??? Before I get into the nitty gritty of my views, let me reassure you that I am NOT condoning any sort of violence; so take heed of that as we proceed through this blurb.... There has been a lot, and I mean A LOT of hatred, vandalism, and killing of Christians lately (some of them being children), which has been devastating. I DO mourn the loss of lives... anybody's life... so maybe the next part of what I am going to say, will be very contradictory, but it IS a proven part of history!!! I have family who are Catholic, Christians, Orthodox, Protestants, Reformed, etc. I also have family who are Pagan, Atheist, Satanist, Luciferian, Wicca, etc. So needless to say, I have a bit of knowle...

  Page 248 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. We are in the 9th chapter of 2025... How crazy is that???  I wanna say it has been a decent year... and for the most part, I feel it has been. Sure, there have been a lot of ups and downs; but as long as there have been one more up than down, we're winning, right? Health is always present, some days are rougher than others, but I have been blessed enough to not have any major episodes requiring lengthy hospital stays.  On the front of friends and fools... well some people have began to show their true colours/shed their skin, so to speak... and my life has been better by them removing themselves; or by me simply walking away from the drama and energy sucking vampyres. As for my heart and soul? Things are what was meant to be... it sure took the long route; but DAMN, it was soooo worth it. I am not going to divulge a lot because there will always be people out there to fk with your vibe. It's disheartening that people can't just be...