Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Page 3 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you this lovely (damn cold) Saturday? It is the third day of the new year already. It is kinda crazy how fast time seems to be slipping by... and for the most part, I don't like it!!! In a week, my dad is going to be 87 years old, and once again, he is facing another bout with cancer; except this time, it is a rare type of skin cancer.  I just want to scream out to the universe to go pick on someone else; BUT I don't wish this kind of anguish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. My oldest granddaughter will be 6 years old in a couple weeks, and my youngest grandbaby is turning four in February. Just blows my mind. Seeing my family over the holidays really drove that point to me. I hadn't seen my family in almost a year, and when I saw my parents, my heart broke (if there was any way it could shatter anymore). I CAN say, I don't really have anything in my personal life that I can whine or complain about... there are minor thin...

  Book 3. Chapter 1. Page 1 of 365. Good Afternoon, my Lovies.  I hope all of you who went out last night, were able to toss out 2025 like the dirty, spiteful rag that is was. In our house, we tend to follow mostly, Celtic and Norse traditions. You generally are supposed to walk through your front door, walk straight through and exit at the back door (this is an invitation for good luck).  We also have the traditional cinnamon ritual done on the first of every month. I don't believe in the "new year, new me" BS. If people want to change themselves, or their lifestyle, they don't need a specific day to do that. If they truly wanted it... they would DO it!!! No excuses. I am not going to be the asshole to rain on your parade. I wish you absolutely the best in whatever you are choosing for yourself; just be sure you're do it for you. 2024 was the year of FAFO. 2025 was the year of Retribution. 2026 is the year of Rediscovery. "May the road rise to meet you, and ...

  Page 356 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope you all have a great Monday. We are in the home stretch of the end of this rather insane and almost crippling year, 2025. Today, I, along with a few others, are taking on the big corporation. We are sick and tired of the conditions we have to live in. We are in a first world country, and we pay for the places we live in.  We should be able to live in a safe, clean and secure dwelling... all of which these slumlords are not providing.  So today, after much fandangling, we finally snagged a meeting with the actual owner of the company. I admit, I have a lot of anxiety right now. I have really bad social anxiety, and it seems like I am going to be the one who lays all the shit on the table, and be the voice of the tenants... I AM known as the "one with the voice". I guess it's true. I cannot stand injustices and I really don't like when big corps think they can run over the little guy; especially since the little guy is LITE...

Page 355 of 365. Holy Crappola, Can you believe there are only ten days left to 2025.  Good Morning my Lovies. I hope you all have a good Sunday. I am reflecting on this past year this morning, and it is hard to believe it is almost done, yet I am very happy to see it coming to an end. It has been a difficult one for many of my loved ones and to some degree, me as well. Many, many people have faced financial difficulties this year, some still going back to when COVID hit; whether it affected them medically, or their companies... People continue to suffer. Just look out your window. There are homeless people everywhere. The foodbanks are overwhelmed. Shelters are full, with no alternative for thousands, if not millions of people. This is a first-world country...  THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE!!! I know I write often about the homeless; but this is a serious issue that no one in the government is taking seriously. In the United States, you have a President who is spending millions, if no...

Page 346 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. We have finished another work week, and we are quickly approaching the end of 2025. This year has been rough for a lot of people. Honestly, here in Canada it has really been the last 5 years. Watching people suffer, break and even die by the boat loads over these 5 years has been heartbreaking. The worst part about it is none of them died from this supposed COVID. Don't get me wrong, I fully acknowledge that COVID was a serious, serious FLU; but it was NOT what the media and governments claimed it to be. COVID caused hell in ways that has nothing to do with medical! Families crumbled ~ over finances, opposing decisions about the jab, losing jobs, being confined together 24/7. Lack of resources, the mental toll. People who have taken the jab (several of them, even), are dying of rapidly deteriorating illnesses that could only be caused by the vaccination the government forced on people. Unbelievable side effects and devastating diagnosis becau...

Page 344 of 365. Good Afternoon my dear Lovies. I come today with a story that really affected me. I am going to post the link here, so you can all see what is pulling at my heart strings, both with mad respect, gratefulness and outrage... all wrapped into one. Link :   KING OF THE DAY Now that you have seen the video, what are your thoughts??? I am not one that has the right to throw stones, as I am and never was a great mom. I am not going to make excuses for my actions and take full responsibility for them. I did the best I could, at the time I did them. One thing, my kids can never say, is their mom doesn't love them!!! Before I express what I truly think... I almost feel like there is context missing from this.  I give this man a lot of respect and praise. He saw something was amiss, and instead of ignoring it, he did the right thing to do... The sad part about the whole situation is he DID record it. I mean, it was a good thing to have, it's just maddening that some...

Page 339 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you are all enjoying this sunny, yet brisk Friday. I love to look outside and see the beautiful fresh snow; but I wasn't thrilled on the wind... UGH!!! I am in a weird mood today. It's one I can't really describe. I am quiet and somewhat at peace. The story is pretty simple... I have gone round n round in circles with my parents for decades, and I basically closed the door on them; when I could no longer tolerate the rudeness without disrespecting myself. I couldn't do it. My 50th birthday was a few days ago. I didn't really blow it up on social media; because even though I ALWAYS celebrate the people I love birthday... I just wanted to lay in peace and solitude. It gave me the chance to reflect on all my blessings and lessons. I am grateful that I have a genuine, honest, loyal, loving man. I lack for nothing. I am getting way off track.... What I was getting at here, is this... my parents never called, texted, nor emai...

Page 336 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I know it has been a few since I have written. I can honestly say, it has been my health, or lack thereof which has kept me away from writing. I swear I have been in a fibro flare for the past month... I feel like I could finally be coming out of it; but not before I gave in and went to the hospital's ER on Sunday. Oh the joys of leaving your life in the hands of the medical professionals... I can't stand it. I have to be alert, because if I wasn's... I'd be dead before I'd even get to the hospital.  People don't like to pay attention, or read notes... like c'mon, some of patients, especially those of us who have long-term chronic pain, or health disorders; we know A LOT about our own bodies. We may not be medical professionals; but no one knows our body better than us. The ER visit didn't do me much good.  It only showed that my kidney doesn't have stones in it, at this time; but I continue to have leisons/cys...

  Page 324 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. How are you this Thor's Day?  I woke up at the ass crack of dawn today. I want to say my heart is heavy; but, I think a better term would be, it is filled with a heaviness because I want nothing more than to take the aching of someone I cherish very much. As you know, I never share names on here, this is the no different. I am not going to share what is going on with this person neither, as it is not my story to tell. I just know my heart aches for them... if only words and a simple flip of a "wand" would cure things, right?!!  Unfortunately, I am not Samantha and this isn't "Bewitched"... as much as I would love it to be right now. At this moment in time, it REALLY sucks being an empath!!! With this person on my mind, and a lot of people I love floating through... I really need to bring up a topic, that should be talked about more... tis the season; and I am NOT talking about the Big ole Jolly Fat Guy neither. It migh...

  Page 323 of 365.  Good Afternoon Lovies. I am writing this as one tired and pissed off Canadian. I have watched my country fall to pieces, crumbling because of the spineless bitches we have sitting on Parliament Hill ~ where the shitheads are that are supposed to be protecting the very people they are hurting!!! For years, possibly decades, our once beautiful country has turned into a universal joke. Criminals who are commiting the worst of the worst are being legally allowed to roam free, since there is this lovely thing called "catch and release"... an utter embarrassment!!!  People who kill, maim, or even pedos and predators don't see much of jail... but Heaven forbid if you hurt someone's feelings, by not agreeing with their religious views, especially if you are a white person (these days).  Laws are being passed that if you offend someone who is, let's say Islamic... you are scrutinized and given very stiff penalties in the eyes of the law; but if you do t...

Page 321 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I mean, I wanna say it is a good morning; frankly, I want to crawl back into bed, and I probably will after I am done writing this entry.  No matter how I feel when I wake up... Mondays seem to drag me down. I cannot explain it. I have so much stuck in my head, yet I cannot put it down in words. I am not in a bad mood. I am jusy "being"... if that makes sense?!! There is nothing particularly wrong in my life, per se.  (OMG, I just found out I have been spelling that incorrectly my whole life... pretty bad for an English Major ~ oopsies). Am I the only one who gets the Monday Blues??? I really should count my blessings. I have a roof over my head. I have food in my belly (or at least I do, when I have an appetite... but that is a whole other story). I have heat (sometimes, depends on the "mood" of the boilers of my building LOL). I have my health (yes, I am breathing on my own). My children and grandchildren are healthy and livin...

Page 320 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It is Sunday Funday... and for those of us in Canada it is Grey Cup Day. LOL, and for those of you who do not know, the Grey Cup is the Canadian version of the Vince Lombardi Trophy for the Superbowl.  CFL (Canadian Football League) vs NFL (National Football League). I have zero intention of watching the game. This may be the first year, I am not watching much of any sports, other than hockey.  Everything has become soooo political, on and off the field/grid, etc, that it's spoiled sports for me!!! I DO have a topic on my mind to write about today; but I feel my words will not justify what I am trying to express.  Lately, I have been seeing a lot of people expressing how they are tired of being fkd over, and are really wanting to be left alone unless someone with pure intentions can bring peace to their "bubble"... the "need" to be with someone is diminishing the older we get.  The odd thing I am also finding, is others wh...

Page 319 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. It's Caturday 🐱 It is supposed to rain in the next couple hours, which is fine with me, as I am not planning on going outside anytime soon. It isn't warm out, so for anyone out and about, I hope you got the right gear on to be comfortable today. Today, it is going to be a simple kind of entry. As an empath, I have a terrible time sitting back and watching people suffer; especially the people who are attached to my soul. I am a fixer and a giver. I don't like it when the people I love the most are in any sort of pain and anguish... and today, is one of those days. I don't know what I am really trying to say today. I just know my heart is heavy and I don't have the words to explain why... this may be a first for me. I hope you all have a good weekend. Please stay safe. Be well and Be loved. Check in on your loved ones, don't take them for granted... cherish the time you have, because honestly, you never know. ~ Phoenix

  Page 318 of 365 Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy FriYay!!!  I hope your workday flies by smoothly and you get to rock into the weekend without any drama. May you be safe and have a great time, in whatever you are doing.  I have no plans for the weekend, but I am perfectly fine with staying home and enjoying the comforts of my bubble. I have zero qualms about sitting at home, catching up on a movie, or simply hanging out with my Ma.  Peace and tranquility are always my goal!!! I am NOT one who goes out to bars. I don't need to get all dressed up and hit the dance floor, flauting my shyt to see which guy's attention I can grab. I am great in that department, and quite honestly, I am not a floozy; my body, my lady bits are for only one man to see... it's called RESPECT!!!  I think there are a lot of people ~ especially women who have seemed to forgotten what that word means. It's not a control thing. It's not just about respecting your significant other, it's also ab...

Page 316 of 365.  Good day Lovies. I am going to straight up warn you that this entry needs a TRIGGER WARNING!!! I am who I am, and who am I if I don't speak bluntly on things? I will simply dive right into what is on my mind, while it is still fresh... Yesterday, I was in one of the groups on facebook called "Lies in the Bible".  There was a picture posted of an adult male with his pants down; mind you he had boxers on. He had a young girl sitting on his lap crying.  The tag on it, said that he was her teacher, and she was learning about the reproductive system of some sort of animal. There were HUNDREDS of comments, NONE of which were saying how wrong the picture was. JFC, I snapped. I posted "WTF is wrong with you people? This is vile and disgusting". Some woman came back at me with, "You Prick, they are not a different species!" HUH??? Now it suddenly became about race... first off, it had nothing to do with skin colour; it had to do with the fact...

Hey y'all. I have been bottling up my feelings about the lack of compassion... EMPATHY might be a better word for it.  I know I just wrote an entry about how invested our country became about a small Ostrich farm on the West coast; but there is also a bitter side to our country, and I desperately want to call people out on it!!! Now don't get it twisted, I like millions of other Canadians (and people around the world), are furious about killing all the ostriches and obviously the sinister reason they pulled this power trip; but I am also angry at the people who fought soooo hard for the ostriches. Let me explain... Canada has been in crisis mode for a few years now... some might say, it has been 10 years of being run into the ground by the corrupt Liberals. I think it's been the lack of accountability in the newer generations, and the complete lack of parenting and discipline. I am a Gen Xer, and there is no way in hell we would act the way people act today... But THAT is a...

  Page 314 of 265. Good Morning Lovies. It's a Monday, so I say that with the best intentions. I have been struggling to get my laptop out and write about the mess I have stuck in my head; but today I decided I need to get some of it out before I go completely bat shit crazy... As most of you are aware, I live in Canada. I, personally, can say, this is NOT the Canada I grew up in.  I  am ashamed of what our government has done to our once beautiful and majestic country. The people here were revered as "nice" around the world... our reputation as a country was pretty high on the list. Today, however, I am very conflicted on what has happened over this past week. Yes, I know it has been going on much longer; but it came to head this week. The government has over reached AGAIN and those power hungry bastards killed hundreds of ostriches in a farm out in British Columbia, claiming they had the avian flu; and the farm was considered a bio-hazard.  We all know this was bul...

Page 302 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. It is Hump Day... May you all make the best of it LOL.  Hell, I can't make any pleasantries today. I am rather ticked off about those in and around... Not those in my circle and bubble, but about some people I DO care about. When you live in the environment I live in (meaning a large apartment building I do, with a few hundred people, there are bound to be a few biddies); this place isn't any different.  You know how we always use the phrase.. " oh, if these walls could talk!!"... well, here, you don't need to imagine it. It's the daily reality!!! I used to giggle about walking out my door, and excitedly anticipating to learn all the new things in my life... and even more so, the things I have done!!! Well, it has rather gotten "old", and the BS is turning people's lives upside down. The things I am hearing are just insane, and it is taking everything in me to not confront these people. When people have nothi...

  Page 297 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope the day treats you well. I woke up at the ass crack of dawn today... not sure why; but here I am!!! I am going to try to keep this entry brief, as it is something that weighs heavily on me heart... I am a fun loving, open-minded, but very opinionated kinda woman. I love with all of my heart. I am kind (too kind, according to those closest to me). I am a free spirit who tends to give people chances when they clearly don't deserve it. Then comes the other side of me... I have depression. I have social anxiety. I have cPTSD. I have panic attacks. Most days, I am confident about myself, but there are some days I think and feel the worst about myself, for absolutely no reason. I get triggered at the smallest thing, or words sometimes.... and it can take me days to process through it (That is my ADHD though).  I had to write all this to get to my point... I know, on my good days, I am easy to love. I am easy to talk to. I am the one upl...

Hey. I told you I was going to write about something else today. The other day, I was watching the last few episodes of "Dynasty" (the newer one). I had forgotten the end of the series, so when I saw and heard the last episode, I had a meltdown, and even now, a few days later; my heart is still hurting!!! This is something that would be so minuscule to others; but deeply affects me. .. I am pretty sure, most of you have watched the movie "Annie". I am talking about the original one from 1982, with Carol Burnett, Tim Curry, Albert Finney, Aileen Quinn, etc. Sure, it is a sweet, feel-good, great ending kind of movie... for MOST people. For me??? It is a stark reminder of my own personal life. LET ME EXPLAIN!!! As you all are well aware of, if you have been following my blog, I am adopted; I was taken in as a foster child, into the same family who adopted me. I have a rather difficult (to put it mildly) relationship with my mother. Every year, on my birthday, my mother...

Page 296 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope all is well with you; or at least the best it can be for you. I have been away from the laptop for a few days now, really stuck in my own head.  I don't like watching the news, I can't stand the way our once beautiful, free countries are completely in shambles. I am sooo tired of the stupidity and hatred that is embedded in society... hatred that is completely senseless, in my opinion. I can't handle the ignorance of people... the fact that people have genuinely pushed their agenda soooo much, that the illogical is now supposed to be common sense. Children are no longer safe, at any age, from anybody.  I live, literally, with my curtains closed, to keep the ugliness outside. I keep my circle soooo tiny because the bitterness, hatred and flip-flop mentalities of people is disheartening. Society no longer knows the meaning of truth, justice, loyalty, respect (this is a HUGE one), and love.  Everyone is out for the almighty dollar...

Page 292 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you? I hope you're having a great Sunday Funday... whether you're watching football, or just enjoying time with friends, family or loved ones.     (I stopped watching football for my own personal reasons... mostly because the league is bringing too much political and religious shit into it. I just want to watch a game... not some pansy ass bullshit. I don't care who is dating who... I hate the disrespect of the anthems and flags... Nah. I'm good. I'll stick to hockey!!!) I have been wanting to get something off my chest in the past couple weeks, but wasn't sure how to say it without sounding like a complete bitch.  I am going to try to tread lightly, even though this subject really can't be expressed delicately... it's more of a "this is how it is" kinda thing!!! I like to believe I have a good heart; at least people tell me I do. I am someone who is a "giver". I don't need to tell p...

  Wow, my brain is on overload and I have been dying to write, it's just been sooooo jumbled, I have been unable to sit down long enough to let the words fall out like verbal diarrhea. I guess today is the day, I am finally going to let some of that spill onto my keyboard... I have always felt very strongly about a relationship/friendship that has been a part of my life, for more than half my life...  (Crazy to think how long that actually is... a friendship that has endured more marriages than either of us care to count. LOL) If I am not fully transparent... I am nothing, so I am opening up and exposing my vulnerabilities here... no matter how tough we are, all of our shells have cracks. Scary, no? Being the way I grew up, you quickly learn there is no one to rely on, other than yourself... and sometimes, your own judgment is questionable. If you are lucky enough to find someone who has the same mentality, not judgmental, loves, respects, trusts and whose loyalty is never que...