Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

  Page 152 of 366. Hi all. I hope Friday treated you well and you're all in for a good weekend. Me??? Well, after going to an appointment I did NOT want to go to and really found out why I felt that way before I went.... kinda blew my day out of the water.  Yes, I am trying to stay positive, but some days that seems like an impossible task. I am extremely thankful for those that are keeping me afloat these days... I don't think any of them truly know the power their love and courage holds!!! I really don't want this to be a downer post, so I am going to kinda dwell on what is, not what could be or what would be... I am going to continue to be thankful for all the good things and people in my life. I may not be what people say is "money rich" but I am beyond wealthy when it comes to the solid people who surround me. I have a chick who has been in my life for a good 11 years who is the most solid person I have ever met. She continues to show, time after time, what i...

  Good Evening my beautiful Lovies. I have spent the early part of the evening enjoying the fresh air (well what would be consider fresh air in this concrete jungle we live in), chatting it up with some neighbours; it was the perfect night to do so. Finished off the evening with taking my nightly concoction of medications that hopefully keep me here to celebrate another day. I am going to try and have an early night as I have a wonderful specialist appointment in the early morning... One I am not particularly looking forward to.  Either they are going to give me decent news and keep me on the injectable blood thinners for another while, or I am going to have to see the vampyres who love take a dozen plus vials of blood from me... fkn blood suckers!!! I have a funny feeling when they say the appointment is only 15 minutes, I am going to be stuck in the damn clinic for hours; and I am pleading with everything in me that I am not going to be forced back into the hospital, althoug...

  Page 151 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. As per usual, I always hope you all have a great day, may the sun meet your face and shine brightly for you all day long. For those riding, may you "keep your knees to the breeze, rubber side down", OR as I like to say, "Four wheels move your body, but two wheels move your soul!!!"  Either way... I have the deepest hope that you all have a blessed day. I am waking this morning with peace in my heart, although I am troubled by things I cannot change and am not close enough to do anything about. Frustrating life situations, unfortunately!!! The one thing I want to share today is that now that the beautiful weather is upon us, I need to reiterate that a lot of friends, family and loved ones are out on two (or three) wheels for the next few months; I implore those who are driving vehicles to keep their eyes open and be more aware of their surroundings as we lose far too many people in every riding season. It's a difficult pill...

  Good afternoon Lovies. I have just been spending the day with my sister. Things have been kinda wonky with my health past couple days, and truthfully, I really don't think I should be alone at times like these.  I have a funny feeling I am in it for the long haul with the daily injections of blood thinners rather than switching up to oral meds... which really sucks donkey balls in my opinion; but I gotta do what I gotta to survive, right?!! These past few weeks have really put some things into perspective for me, while throwing other things into complete upheaval. I don't lead a luxurious life by any means, but I have led an interesting one; meeting people from both sides of the tracks... people in very high and very low places; all of whom I have respect for... everyone having a story of their own.... NONE of which is my story to tell!!!  I DO have to say, I am eternally grateful for the path, albeit excessively difficult, because I don't think had I stayed on the stra...

  Page 150 of 366. Good Morning everyone. I am not sure how everyone is doing, but I hope the day treats you well. I, however, am in a bit of a funk. I had some good news healthwise yesterday and some other news that was quite pleasing to hear, but I am not going to write about that part as I don't want to seem petty and celebrate in what could be consider the misery of another.  (This matter is to only be shared with my nearest and dearest as they were the ones who were here for when it was the toughest!!!) Despite my nightly regime of medications, I had a very difficult night; which isn't the norm for me. Usually, I take my meds, chat a bit with beloved and I drift off to dreamland and tend to be out for a good night; but last night, although it started out as a good, heavy sleep, I ended up having several disturbing dreams. One in particular I would wake up, only to fall back into the exact same dream and continue.  Normally, I am able to do lucid dreaming and switch w...

  Page 149 of 366. Good Day my Lovies. I hope all is well with you on this kinda dreary Tuesday afternoon. Again, I am not complaining, because the clouds ease the heat and the barometric pressure isn't too high that I am sick from a headache nor bleeding from my nose nor ears... (so, in that sense, it is a good day for me :) I had to get up entirely, way too early this morning because I had to have a video appointment with one of my specialist.... funny thing, is he's registered under a cardiologist centre, so that kinda screwed me up when I've been booking appts with him; as I had a cardiologist already ?!! I believed he was on my new cardio team TBH. Anywho, it turns out that Dr B. (we're calling him that, since his name is pretty much a whole sentence on its own LOL)... specializes in internal medicine... namely my liver... IMAGINE THAT!!! Well... that call was an interesting one, since he had NO clue that I was in the hospital for 9 days, which one of the reasons I...

  Page 148 of 366. Hello all my Lovies. I know I am a bit late in writing today, to be honest, I didn't even know if I had it in me to bother writing anything. I had a fairly decent past few days, but today seems to be draining me like I was just before I went into the hospital.  I don't know what it is today, whether it's the alignments or shifting of the planets and energies or if it simply is just more health crap to deal with; either way, I AM struggling today!!! Tomorrow morning, I have a virtual appointment with my cardiology team. I am sure this visit is gonna be "peaches" since we all know that my heart has been affected by the crap that has been going on for some time now; and with all this blood clotting in various parts of my body; I am preparing for some shitty news... hope for the best; expect the worst, right??? I honestly just want to crawl into bed, keep my ringer off (like it isn't already), and just shut out the world until a better day appea...

  Hey y'all. I know I have been on a writing kick lately. I won't apologize. I have such an inspirational being in my life, it has been bringing me back to life. I am hoping tomorrow I can begin back with my other blog too. I know I am supposed to be on complete bedrest, but technically sitting on the couch with the laptop is the same thing, no??? Tomato/Tomatoe, right??? I have really been reflecting a lot on the past year. I had done a lot of personal growing this past year. I spent time truly searching my soul. I travelled to places I wanted to see, meeting various people along the way. I had to escape myself to rediscover myself... if that makes ANY sense?!! I needed time to figure out who I was, outside of the people I was with, or recently involved with. I had a relationship that ended after three plus years, and I knew that I needed time to be alone. Not just to heal, but to also discover the girl I used to be, and the woman I had become and who I wanted to be. I took to...

  Page 147 of 366. Good Day all you fantabulous people. I hope you are enjoying the weekend, and for all my American friends and family, hope you enjoy the long weekend and really take into account what this long weekend is truly about!!! Not the drinking, partying and BBQs... it's about honouring and remembering those who have been, currently are and those who will be the brave who fight for our rights and freedoms.  It is a day to memorialize the fallen... thank them for the freedoms they have bestowed and sacrificed for... even if those freedoms are being infringed upon in the presence. Sorry, I am not making this a political post. I just wanted to take a moment and acknowledge those who gave the ultimte sacrifice for you, me, my family and loved ones. This post may be met with controversy, but it is not in me to avoid a discussion because someone might disagree with me. This world is not meant for all of us to be of a singular mindset... it is meant for us to all have the ...

  Ever heard that saying before??? "Let sleeping dogs lie!!!" It's one that has been playing in my mind all day, after I received an unexpected message late last night. Initially, I wasn't going to respond, but the empath in me knew I had to respond, express what I was feeling and listen to what was going on. I received news that someone had passed away. Someone who in my youth I liked and respected; someone who was always kind to me. Someone who ended up being family by extension, in a sense I am not going to explain right now, as it's too fresh a wound to rip open. I gotta admit, this one stung. Not just for me, but for the person who messaged me, as it was their father. I'd like to think that had I not been in the hospital, I would have went to the funeral, out of respect for this person and the entire family; but I also feel that would have opened wounds that never need to be reopened. There is wayyyyyy too much baggage to unpack there to just show up and ...

  Good evening peeps!!! I hope you all got to enjoy this beautiful May day... even if it started out stormy, which I wish it lasted all day and night. Nothing more sensual than a beautiful thunderstorm in the middle of a lazy afternoon; if you're home with your fave person (notice the "if"). I would get more explicit, but I am trying to be I don't know... more "ladylike"???  Who the hell am I kidding?!!  Storms are erotic and they are a huge turn on to some people, and I happen to be one of those people. I also find a good rain to be cleansing and grounding. I love nothing more to dance barefoot in the grass, dancing freely as the raindrops trickle down my skin. Yes, I may be weird, but at least I am honest about it AND fully embrace it. Can you say the same??? I sit here tonight, after a great dinner at my sister's. I am still trying to cope with the brutal injections I have to take into my belly every day... they are nothing like the insulin ones I am ...

  Hi all. I am sure the title may seem a bit deceiving to those reading this post but it is something very real for me. I don't think there has been a day in the past year or so that I have not heard of a friend or family member who has lost someone to the summerlands (afterlife, heaven/hell/valhalla... whatever you may call it...). I guess this is one of those things that happens when we age, but it has been haunting my life since I was fairly young.  Some will say it may be the lifestyle I have lived, others say it is circumstances and personal choices while others say it's the will of God.  Do any of you have an actual answer??? Or are you just talking out of your ass because you don't know how to truly react to such news??? I guess I am weird that way... If I don't know what to say, that is exactly what I would say... that I am at a loss for words and offer my condolences to the family and loved ones. I guess "death" has just been hitting a lot closer to h...

  Page 146 of 366. Good Morning Y'all. I am just going to be brief in this one right now because I am seriously cheesed at this. I don't know what blogger is doing, and I have no clue why it is only displaying one of my blurbs at a time on my pages, as it is set to show 666, but wtf do I know at this point??? I have only been blogging since it was created. SMFH It is my first official full day at home from after 9 days in the hospital. I cannot say I am better, and should have been released, but I am grateful to be home with my furbabies and in my own bed.  I am thankful to no longer be a deflated pin cushion, minus the blood thinner injection I have to take daily and well, who knows about the insulin anymore because the hospital royally fkd up ALL my medications... personally I think the doctor there just changed my scripts so he could line his pockets with the kick backs from them. I can play that game too... I will be contacting my family doctor on Monday, and if there are ...

Page 144 of 366. Good Day Lovies. I hope the sun is beaming all around you, unless you're like me... then I hope it's thundering and lightning for you!!! I had the pleasure of watching a cloud pass by, last night, quickly off in the distance light up, over and over again. It was the first time I've ever seen that; was pretty amazing!!! The thunderstorm never hit our city, but it sure got windy at one point. So let me get into why I chose the title I did for this blurb... Without divulging all my medical shyt on here, I'll just explain the scenario. I had 2 specialists come by, fairly late in the afternoon yesterday. They informed me what I already suspected... blood clots. With them finally understanding the immense pain I'm in, both agreed to give me my pain medications through IV, rather than taking them orally, as I've been doing past couple days. So when time came for my medication, I paged nurse... she ignores it. When she finally does come in she checks an...