Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

  Good Afternoon Lovies.  I know in my post earlier today, I said I do not want to hear people telling me their resolution for the new year is this "new year, new me" crap... and I meant it.  What I'd love to know is what are your GOALS for the coming year? What do you intend to accomplish??  I don't mean, "I plan on joining the gym and lose a ton of weight" kinda of thing...  (If that is your "jam", I dig it, but I'm talking about deeper goals)!!! I had a goal for 2024, actually a few of them; most of which I accomplished. I began the year in a slump, which resulted in an overdose, right in the middle of the first month. Yah, I know... Some of you may be shaking your head, but I have never been one to shy away from speaking my truth.  After this "shaky" time in my life, and a few medical episodes, I decided I would put my foot down and be more decisive with what I wanted to accomplish for myself, personally. Something that is entire...

Page 366 of 366.  Hello my Lovies. Today, is the last day of what seemed like a long year to some ~ at points, it definitely felt like it ~ other times, it flew by faster than I care to say...  I guess that is the joys of getting older; for some crazy ass reason, time seems to slip by far quicker with age.  Don't ask me how that works!!! I am on my 50th trip around the sun, and I still haven't figured out this whole "time" thing. LOL I am first off going to ask that people don't talk to me about their "new year, new me" bullshit; just admit it... we are all going to be the same people we were this past year; and the previous years. The one thing, I have learned about this night is this... The way you spend tonight, and ring in the new year is exactly how your year is going to be. I implore you all to make it the best of the best; or as good as you can. I am going to stick to my usual stance and be with people I love; people I call famILY. Without a quest...

Page 365 of 366. We are literally in the home-stretch of  ending 2024. How are you all, my Lovies??? I hope the day treats you well, and that you all are having a great day (inspite of it being Monday) ... I want to discuss something that can be a rather touchy subject with many people; but a necessary evil to talk about. This "disease" affects EVERYONE in one way, or another. There isn't a single being in this world, who can say in good conscience that it doesn't intertwine in their life... either they are lying or can't accept what is!!! I am talking about drug addiction (and alcoholism) !!! Bear with me, because, this is a touchy subject for me too, as it affected my life in ways I will not explain; but the reason I want to talk about it today is due to how the media presents certain things these days... We have for decades, watched shows, movies, plays/broadway, etc. We tend to follow some of our favourite performers/actors/musicians (eg.) , learning about th...

  Hi Everyone. Tonight I am going to voice my opinion on something that will mostly go against the grain; but at the end of the day, it is just my opinion as it really has NO effect on the people I am writing about, nor the people reading this... I am well aware of the fact that people get on social media, a lot of the time, to stir shyt up. People go onto celebrity mag sites to catch up on all the latest in celebrity gossip...  Tonight I want to talk about one couple in particular. It might be because I am part British, or that my country is part of the Commonwealth, or simply because I used to freelance write in the entertainment industry. Whatever the reasoning, this subject/this couple has been a bone of contention for people all around the planet. I am talking about Prince Harry and Meghan Markle (The Duke & Duchess of Sussex ~ Members of the British Royal Family). Right from the start, this couple getting together had it's issues among the public, and apparently amon...

Hi y'all. I guess this is the perfect time for me to get a lil "witchy" on everyone.  I have talked a bit about how people around the world tend to MOSTLY follow the 12 month calendar that is currently best suiting the narrative of the collective human race, while some of us, continue to use a 13 month calendar...  ... one that follows the 13 cycles of the moon. (That is literally putting it in a very simple nutshell... solar versus lunar!!!) People are fairly familiar with the term "once in a blue moon", which refers to the second full moon in a one month period. The "Black Moon" happens when there are two NEW moons in  a one month period. Please keep in mind that this is not the "Dark Moon". The Dark moon focuses on reflection, release and shadow work, whereas the Black moon brings a powerful energy seeding potential, powerful manifestation (please be cautious about the words and actions you release to the universe) ; and an extreme focus o...

Afternoon Lovies. I know this is going to be a bit of a "bizarre" blurb, seeing how this world is soooo different from the views I personally uphold in my own life. I want to begin that I am not here to disrespect anyone, nor any movement that has caused the world to be the way it is today; BUT I AM going to speak my mind on it... I am ol school. I mean that in EVERY sense. I firmly believe the man is still the head of the household.  A woman's place is still in the kitchen, and if financially it is feasible, a mom should stay home with the children until they are at least in school full time. The reason I am a stickler on the mom staying home with the children is simple. Just look outside... observe the generations who haven't had parental guidance in their primary years. There is zero discipline. Zero respect. Zero morals. I firmly believe when feminism became the norm, family and the concept of family was tossed in the backseat. Children fell through the cracks, an...

Page 363 of 366. Morning Lovies. It's Caturday, the last one of 2024, so make it a great one!!! There are literally THREE days left of this year.  I cannot believe how fast this year has been; despite all the trials and tribulations that have been thrown my way, I DO have to say, 2024 has been a better year than the past few before that.  Even though I was engaged and living with someone... there is something liberating in finding yourself after long, troubling relationships. I had given my everything to people who deserved NOTHING from me and it took these past couple years to truly grasp this as the truth.  This lesson reiterated to me, how deeply important my tiny circle, especially my best friend, are to me.  2024 was also the year that defined the word "FEAR" for me: "Forget Everything And Run OR Face Everything And Rise". I have lived most of my life in "fight or flight" mode; this year, with the help of my tribe, finally faced things I have bee...

  Good Evening Lovies. I hope the day has treated you well. I hope your night is even better. May you all have a restful night and may your dreams be sweet. I had to come back on here because I needed to express my sincerest gratitude to a complete stranger today.  My faith in humanity hasn't been restored, because I haven't fully lost faith in it to begin with... but today someone's actions has given me not just more hope, but some peace...  (Something that doesn't come by too easily for me). To make a very long story short, I live alone, but I am not lonely!!! Over the past 12 to 18 months, I have been dealing with a load so heavy, it would take an average of 6 people to carry; but I am still kickin it. I have my moments; I just refuse to give up. I am currently dealing with some intense stuff that no person, let alone a woman should ever have to face... and I absolutely refuse to let it break me. Today, it was like an "angel" sort of fell out of the sky and...

Hi again. Like I said, I may have a few things to get off my chest... sooooo, hopefully y'all are hanging around for the babbling of my somewhat lucid mind today!!! I know I have written quite a bit about the homeless and the encampments... people who have constantly bitched about them, even expressing that the homeless are almost sub-humans, and the world is better off without them. BLOWS MY MIND!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO HUMANITY?!! Maybe I view things a little different because of my own personal experiences; maybe it's the empath in me. I don't know why this is something I am sooooo passionate about, it just hits me different. I guess another thing that boggles my mind, is the commercials at this time of year.  There is one that's about Covenant House, a youth shelter they have here in downtown Toronto, the commercial is basically about an infant left in a bus shelter, saying how that would effect people, so how wouldn't a young teenager not; asking people to donate t...

Hi. I guess I have a lot to say today LOL.  I am not sure if it was yesterday, or the day before, (I have short term memory loss, so I DO get my days confused sometimes)...  I was sitting talking with someone I definitely consider my sister, and my Ma; when we were talking about something and I very casually mentioned HER name.  It blew my mind. You all know my rule. I do NOT mention names... I cannot even recall what the conversation was about, but the mere mention of her name used to bring me such heartache. See, this woman had been my best friend since we were 13 years old. We shared everything from minor school spats to fights, to the birth of our kids and deaths of family members... somewhere along those decades, we changed into very different people; and I never understood why, since we grew up the same way. (No, I won't share her story, because even though we have fallen out, I don't believe in throwing people under the bus; nor do I divulge their deep, dark secret...

Page 362 of 366. Good Morning Lovies. I hope the day greets you with greatness. It is the day after, the day after xmas LOL. It is also FriYay. I gotta wonder why people are going into work today, since it IS friday, and the past few days have been holidays here. Why are companies sooooo stingy that they can't give the extra day with pay off to their employees??? I will never understand the greed of these people!!! I have to admit, even though I didn't host anything this year... I really got to see how the whole holidays takes a toll on those who DO host events. It is deeply appreciated, all around I hope. Thank you! I guess I never took that into account as I was too busy myself prior years, LMAO. I am hoping next year to be having my usual dinners and get-togethers, because honestly, I miss making the big dinners and the gatherings... it may be different people at the table, but that is the point. I don't need gifts, nor wealth. It is the people who matter to me. UGH, I a...

  I am back again. I know I have been trying to be uplifting in the past few posts; however I received some difficult news, that DID put a damper on the "festivities" that I was supposed to be all giddy and happy about... I mean, I took the chance and went to my parents' place for dinner, and all things considered, it went well. It was peaceful.  I had to continue to "swallow" some disappointments, but I have come to accept things will never change in those aspects, and that is on them...  I have chosen a long time ago, that their views on people are their views and is a reflection of them; not what these people actually are. It's just how some are set in their ways, so you can either love them for who they are, or just block them out of your life... which is something I have done, sometimes for a decade at a time; but let's face facts, my dad is going to be 86 in January and my mom is going to be either 83 or 84 (forgive me, I am not close with my mothe...

  Page 361 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you all had a great day yesterday... hopefully y'all are recovering from the "itis" all right, and prepping your livers for NYE festivities... if you are drinking.  (I honestly don't know why they call these two weeks the Christmas "BREAK", because it is by NO means a time to relax for anybody!!!) I will be trying to write a few blurbs over the next 5 days because I am only 190 readers away from reaching my 7000 (readers) goal for this year.  I am beyond amazed at how many people have taken the time to read my ramblings... it's humbling, to say the least. I am soooo appreciative for all of you. I honestly began writing my blog for my own therapeutic reasons. It's kind of like how people turn to music to express their emotions; and somehow those lyrics connect people on all kinds of different levels...  I write, in hopes that my experiences may reach even one person who is, or was, in a similar situatio...

  Good Evening Lovies. This blurb may not be a long one, as I am trying to stay on the positive side of things this long, lonely night. It is now "Christmas Night", there are 6 more days left of 2024 and I sit here alone in my room, with just the light of my candle flickering, illuminating the faded, dark purple walls that surround me. My heart weighs heavy...  I had made the tough decision to go see my family (ie. my parents) for Christmas dinner today. TRUST when I say, I didn't make this choice lightly.  There is A LOT of bad blood and a lot of scars that will never heal properly; but I do recognize that we all have scars... we all have maps of the pain we have endured and conquered; why am I any different?  I wasn't going there with a "victim" mentality. I was going as a daughter, who (once again) was going to see her aging parents in an attempt to have a nice day and simply spend the day with them. I have to say, I am VERY grateful I went. I am VERY gra...

Page 360 of 366. We are in the final days... the last week of this year. To those of you who celebrate it... Happy Christmas... Merry Yule!!! LOL. Whatever you are celebrating, I hope you have a great time and are surrounded by those you love, and who love you.  Today, has been sort of a day of "reckoning" for me... Some truths came out that I have been waiting for DECADES to hear. I am not gloating, nor saying these are massive wins; because if anyone knows what this means, they know how deep this scar runs... I am not going to get into the deets about this particular conversation, but let's just say some people who have been very stuck in their ways, (just as I have been VERY stubborn, in my core beliefs); we have come to a massive "plateau" (so to speak), when it came to these massive differences. To hear someone admit that there are lies in the bible and that it's more of a premise than a truth; was a HUGE deal to me.  I am not saying this is a "vic...

  Page 357 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you have a fantastic Sunday Funday. Sorry, I woke up to a giggle this morning... well two actually, but this one I really had to write about first... Y'all know I am NOT religious by ANY means. I won't bash people for their own personal beliefs, even though I have some horrific memories and scars from monsters who claim to be devote Christians... you know the ones who sit in the pews on Sundays; but are demons in disguise, the rest of the week.  Anyways... that is NOT what I wanted to explain what my giggle is all about today... Someone had posted a meme on facebook today that I just could only say, "WOW" to and wonder if this is another one of the Mandela effects, we  have all been experiencing these past few years, possibly decades??? To begin... it stated that the Candy Cane was a Christian symbol for the Shepherd's crook, as Christ is called the "Good Shepherd". I can give them that because honestly th...

  Page 355 of 366. Good Evening/Night Lovies. I know it is very late for me to be posting an entry, but as you can guess, it has been a rather busy day for me... both in my mind and physically.  GAWD!!! I cannot stand people!!! Trust... I had to go grocery shopping today.  I am NOT one of these chicks that can go aisle by aisle and spend hours shopping... I am in the store, grab the shyt that is on my list and I am outta there!!!  I can't handle people. I can't handle the whiny, bratty kids. I can't handle the snotty, hoity toity broads who want everything a specific way, or whatever tf they want... grab your shyt and LEAVE!!! Anyways, I had to write about this particular topic tonight because I constantly see people using this term, over and over again; especially those who think they have fallen in love with someone... First off... if you have FALLEN in love with someone... falling implies that you, at some point, need to get back up... so as quickly as you fell, y...