Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Good Evening Lovies. I hope you are having a great time, with whatever you are doing... If you are resting, I hope you have a blissful sleep with the sweetest of dreams. It has been a rather quiet day, other than paying some bills and doing a bit of grocery shopping. Ohhhh, I decided to switch it up a bit and dyed my hair, even splurged and replaced my evil eye necklace, that was broken by the MRI tech when I was in the hospital last.  I was just sitting here, thinking. It's been quite a few years since I have been able to say, "I feel peaceful. I feel loved (genuinely loved, without conditions)... do you know how rare that is??? I have all this craziness happening around me, with my health, with my adopted family, with my biological family (not including my baby sister) and a few other beings...  Yet I somehow have found my zen. I like to call this "karmic" as I have put so much effort into making sure everyone around me was good for sooooooo long; often putting mys...

Page 59 of 365. The last page of the second chapter of 2025. Hi Lovies. How are you all today? I hope you're having a great FriYay, and the weekend that follows will be just as awesome.  This blurb is obviously going to be a controversial one... you can see it in the title... so I am just gonna jump right in, rather than babble on about other stuff, not relevant to this post. As you all know, I am in a groups that talks about the lies in the Bible. It started with some video about a chick saying Christianity worships a false god, etc. It was more of a video to cause BS arguments in the group and I engaged in the conversation. This little video led to some guy saying women need to keep their mouths shut, quoting a bible verse that says, " women should keep silent in the churches. for they are not permitted to speak, but should be in submission, as the Law also says. If there is anything they desire to learn, let them ask their husband at home. For it is shameful for a woman to ...

Boo... I'm back again!!! We are coming to the end of the work day for most people... I hope y'all have a safe drive home, and get to enjoy the evening.  My mind is already spent after the events of today. I am not complaining, because with everyday passing; I am getting a run for my money when it comes to the "law"...  I LOVE dealing with legal stuff, especially when it involves breaking down bullies; specifically in the form of the big corporations!!! Today has just been one thing after another. I don't think there was really a break for anything. Mentally I am overwhelmed, but all the events that transpired were necessary... I got up this morning, after catching up on all the current episodes of "Reacher", and I watched part of "Crow"~ something I wasn't sure I'd like because I felt it was disrespectful to make another one because it would destroy Brandon Lee's legacy... so far, I have been enjoying it. Now to get to my day... The...

  ... what a tale your thoughts could tell. I don't know where we went wrong. But the feeling's gone and I just can't get it back. You know that ghost is me. And I will never be set free. As long as I'm a ghost that you can't see."   ~ Gordon Lightfoot (Just a song that reminds me of my youth, and sweet innocent times) Page 58 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope Thor's Day treats you well. I can, (and cannot) , believe we are on the second last day of February already. Some days I am super grateful that time is slipping by so quickly, other times I wish I could savour the moments; simply stop time. I look around and cannot stand how much our world and society has changed. Yes, I admit there have been a few changes that were necessary; but some movements didn't bring us forward as a people... it segragated an already shattered community and world. It's painful to watch. The brutally honest truth of life is that it is NOT fair... to ANY of us. We are ...

   Page 57 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It's been a rather weird night and day. I think I fell asleep rather early last night, that could be due to the fact that I ate a gummy to ease my pain; or due to some strenuous activities... who really knows. I DO know that my mind was all over the place. I mean, I am grateful I accomplished some things; but feel I have a new mission I need to tackle.  I mean, I need to take the time to get all the wording right, and do the story justice for all the women involved... I don't give a flying rat's ass about the guy (POS) in this case at all.  I DO need to write about it because this situation has affected people I love far more than others realize... and I am NOT one to let shyt slide when it comes to certain people in my life. I guess I am all over the place today, concerned about people's well-being, which is impacting my own well-being. I am having a down day today. I DID accomplish things that needed to be done... fighting ...

Page 56 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. It's "Taco Tuesday"... oh how ironic!!! It's been a good morning. I actually feel accomplished.  Got lots of legal stuff out of the way AND filed and sent in my taxes to the government.... YUPPP. I'm killing it today LOL I should say "is it only Tuesday?" because the past few days have been A LOT for me. Yesterday was a bit of a "slap in the face" for me... but I'm rolling with it!!! (I acknowledge it has been difficult for others too). I have been talking a lot about women coming forward with their own stories of abuse, in one form or another; and I fully intend to expose a major story in the next few days. Today, however, I am back to my own story... Yesterday, I got an email regarding my situation with the guy here who has sexually harassed and assaulted me. I don't care what he claims when I actually have proof and witnesses. Apparently, the corporation finally wants to have a sit down, after the...

  Page 54 of 365. Good day my Lovies. I hope you are enjoying this peaceful Sunday. Not too much is happening in my world today. I have been deep inside my mind lately, and one topic is really in the forefront these days... LOL This is going to be a NSFW kinda blurb though... Just so you're all aware... I know for many people talking about sex is a very taboo subject. A lot of people are still very prudish with their views and practices,. I call these people "vanilla". I am NOT bashing them. What works for them is great for them. We can go a little more in depth, talking about couples who enjoy more than the missionary position, basically through a hole in a sheet. The ones who are having sex for pleasure, not just for the purpose of procreating. They probably are still pretty "vanilla". These may be people who are curious, but haven't taken the leap into the "darker" side of their sexuality because they are worried what people will think of them. ...

Good Evening Lovies. I hope you are all staying warm and toasty on this rather dreary night. I sit here on the couch, waiting for the hockey game starting in 20 minutes.... LOL  Y'all know I am a huge sports buff AND hockey truly is CANADA'S game, tonight is an interesting one as my team plays against my best friend's...  Well, let's be honest, most people I know, don't like my choice of hockey team... but I am not a wagon jumper so I remain a HABS fan 4lyfe!!! I have this sense that I need to get things off my chest, but I am not even sure where this urge is coming from, to be perfectly honest. This past week has been filled with more up and downs than any fkn rollercoaster I have ever been on... and trust, with my mental health... I have been on quite a few!!! So where do I begin with such a tangled mess of thoughts??? Maybe I should start with how an ex had contacted me, acting like the childish man-child he has always been. If there is one thing that I cannot st...

Page 53 of 365. Hi y'all. I am going to be discussing a sensitive subject. Please note that I am going to talk about something that may upset some of my readers. I apologize for that, but this is a topic that needs to remain vocal and "open" to discussion. We need to open the doors and windows and bring the topic of domestic violence to the forefront and keep it there!!!  I have my own personal reasons for talking about this today; but just looking around the world and seeing how much it continues to happen, angers me to no end.  I am going to do all I can, to call out those who are the perpetrators. I ALMOST put men, but switched it to "perpetrators" because you'd be surprised how many women are abusers too. I have written previously that in my youth I had been raped and sexually assaulted (at two different ages) . That eventually landed me in the psychiatric ward by the time I was 14. I didn't say a word... I literally was mute for 3 weeks before I b...

Page 52 of 365. Hi Lovies. I hope you have a great friday and a fantastic weekend. I have had an "off the wall" kinda week.  Clearly you know this, as I have not been writing consistently every day.  I think a lot of it is because of what is happening in and around me; but part of it is seasonal depression... something I don't even understand why I get it, since I love the winter.  C'est la vie!!! The weekn began with a federal holiday, here in Ontario, Canada, we call it "Family Day", kind of ironic since I didn't spend time with what people consider to be "family", in the traditional sense. I did, however, get to spend it with my favourite people. The rest of this week has kind of been a blur... I don't think anything really exciting happened; at least to me. We are now at Friday, and I am just chillaxing, expecting to go out for a "roadtrip" possibly tomorrow. I am dealing with the usual bullshit from the building I am living i...

Page 50 of 365. Dear Lovies. I am not in the mood to speak of sweet nothings. It's just not that kind of day. I am just going to dive right into this huge pool of bullshit, and state, for once and for all, the truth.  You don't want to believe me... THERE IS THE FKN DOOR!!!  I have never given you a reason to doubt me, nor my intentions; but you doubt my loyalty?? My respect?? My honour??? Nah... this shit won't fly!!! I take pride in my level of loyalty and honour. I have a depth of respect that isn't really existent these days; which sadly bothers my soul. I miss the ol school ways. I don't miss the pettiness. I am too old for this shit; I was too old for it when I was in school. We are grown ass adults, and this shouldn't even be a thing these days... BUT HERE WE ARE... I am going to state this clearly and plainly in ENGLISH, so no one can misconstrued what I am saying... My heart is full, My soul is at peace. My life is chaotic, but without who I've got,...

  Page 49 of 365. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hope you all had a great long weekend, inspite of the incredibly snowy weather we've had.  It has been a long time since we have seen this amount of snow fall over the course of a few days.  I must admit, it reminded me of my childhood; and since I wasn't breaking my back shovelling, I enjoyed the serenity a fresh blanket of snow creates...  ... at least until you start hearing the sirens going and hearing about emergency services unable to reach patients. Not a heck of a lot happened this weekend, but the things that did were exactly what I needed. They were significant enough to keep me away from me writing anything... so that says something. Rearranging the house, which is great because it desperately neededa purge... in many, many ways. The bad energy needed to be removed, and the great happy energy needed to be brought in... fresh starts, and renewal of things that were sort of a long time coming. I know I am speakin...

Page 46 of 365. Hi my fellow Lovies. I hope the day is treating you well. The snowy weather is just starting here, and looks like it'll be here for the next couple days... Time to grab a blanket and cozy up by the fire place, until it's time to watch Team Canada take on Team USA tonight. Obviously, I am rooting for Team Canada... It's one of the few things that we Canadians can take pride in. LOL I don't really have a huge topic to talk about today. I have some thoughts on my mind, and they're a bit jumbled so I am not sure if I should just put them in one blurb, or do separate ones. I guess it's the soft heart in me, that makes my mind wander towards all the homeless and people who have spent years on the streets. I'd like to say, it's on the empath in me; but unfortunately, I actually know what it feels like to be sleeping in a park under some tree while it snows, or rains. The weather in Canada is absolutely unforgiving!!! Back then we, "street p...

  Hi y'all.  This topic will have a TRIGGER WARNING on it. It is not something that is a particular entry that affects me directly; but I am enraged, none the less... I need to bring up how useless our judicial system is. When you read this blurb, you will be as furious as I am, and know that we need a massive change to the system, before people are going to turn and take things into their own hands. (Honestly, I am soooo appalled by this, if the women in this article were my grandmothers, I would be catching charges because there is no fkn way I would allow a POS like him wander around free as a bird, while they are traumatised from the shit he did to them.) Here is the article... HAMILTON - SEXUAL ASSAULT SUSPECT RELEASED - Hamilton Police are warning the public after a 22-year-old male accused of violent sexual assaults, including breaking into an elderly woman's home and assaulting her, was recently RELEASED ON BAIL. He appeared at a bail hearing on February 10, 2025, and...

  Page 45 of 365.  Good Morning Lovies. I hope y' all have a great day leading into the long weekend, at least here in parts of Canada.  I don't really like acknowledging what today is, because February 14th is just another day to me.  As for the Pagan part of me, Valentine's Day is a bastardized Christian version of our celebration of  Lupercalia (which is celebrated on February 15th).  Our rituals for this day are drastically different from what people view Valentine's Day as, today. Lupercalia was a bloody, violent and sexually charged celebration awash with animal sacrifice, random matchmaking and coupling in the hopes of warding off evil spirits and infertility. Simply put, it is a day filled with animalistic sex, blood sacrifice and fertility. I don't really need to share what the Christians changed the day into ~ frankly, even their versions and meanings of today differ from each other, to fit the narrative of whatever is convenient for their specifi...

  Page 44 of 365.  Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you day is treating you well. I hope you are all staying warm and cozy despite the nasty weather we've been having lately.  (I have to note, that I am not one of those who detests the cold, or snow... but I do not like my loved ones, nor anyone being out in any dangerous conditions!!!) I have slowly being stuck in my head. I am on the verge of a complete breakdown. I shared my concern and I am hanging on by a thread because I know I am needed as much as the person I spoke to is. I swear life just doesn't seem to give much of a break to people. I am not going to complain because I know a lot of others have harder lives, and I am blessed to have the people I have in my life... one above all others; but ya know... I am stuck in the middle of a DNA bullshit situation that was formed because two adults hooked up, had me. The cooter shooter, spit me out; abandoned me, then contacted the paternal side, that she had a child. Becaus...

  Page 43 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. A lot has happened in the past few days, My emotions have been up and down, some of them are absolutely out of control; others I don't know how to process.  I mean, let's be real, my life is not overly exciting, and I prefer it that way. I don't like drama.  I love traquility; but my disdain for injustice is HUGE...  ... maybe even more than my own peace. I am supposed to go for a DNA test with my biological brother tomorrow... a second test, because h's not convinced by the first one. I have zero problem getting a second one, as it will just confirm the first one. So then this begs the question... will the second test really make a difference, in the end, with his attitude towards me going foreward?  I would like to wish that; but I have a funny feeling this is just too difficult a "pill" for him to swallow. I get frustrated because I never chose to be in this situation. I get that neither did my brother and sister; bu...

  Page 40 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It's the Holiest Day of the Year ~ Superbowl Sunday. Tonight is going to be a historic night, no matter the outcome.  If the Kansas City Chiefs win... (I prefer to call them the "Chefs", since it seems they only got this far thanks to corrupt refs, who got fired for their role in helping them get here)...  IF they win, they will be the first team in NFL history to be Superbowl Champions three (3) times in a row. If the Philidelphia Eagles win, this will be the first Superbowl win for the Eagles. I am going to stick to my original thought... the Eagles are the better team here; and I REALLY hope tonight they have the win they deserve. GO EAGLES GO!!! ~ Phoenix

Good Evening my Lovies. I hope you had a peaceful, yet fun, Saturday. I can say that today has been more of a "lay around" kind of day. Most of the day was rearranging apartment and waiting around for satellite guy to arrive.  I am not complaining, but the anxiety I get when strangers (moreso men than women) come into my home is sooooo high, I almost can't function. I am having some "interesting" things happening around me lately. I am kind of overwhelmed from the things I am learning. Don't worry, they are not bad, they are more like two completely different worlds... NO, more like UNIVERSES, colliding!!! I have been talking a lot more to my sister, and I am learning fascinating things, that otherwise I may have never knew. The six degrees of separation thing is very real; it's kind of wild how all through my youth, I was literally in the same places as them, knew the same people, even delivered the newspaper to my own grandfather's home; having NO ...

Page 39 of 365.  Good Morning (?) my Lovies. I hope you all had an awesome Friday night and a fantabulous weekend awaits you!!! Don't ask me why I am up at this ungodly hour... my insomnia is in full-force and I really don't have a person I can talk to at this god-forsaken time. Do you ever have soooooo much on your mind that you almost wish you could literally hit your head so you'd finally get some REAL sleep, even if it IS maybe a coma or being unconscious??? It's a legit question to all my fellow insomniacs!!! I don't think I have felt this physically exhausted in over a year. I mean, I haven't had to use my walker, or anything like that recently, but it damn well feels like I should be!!! I have been having "freebies" (IYKYK) for the past few weeks, and they are getting worse by the day. Trust, I am following the doctor's instructions when he jokingly said, he'd rather I get familiar with the walls and not the floor...  Sorry, I found that...

  Page 38 of 365. Good Evening Lovies. I figured I would send out a post before I completely brainfart and forget AGAIN. I can't stand missing time from my "art".  Writing is absolute therapy for the soul, and I tend to shut down when I don't have this outlet to release my opinions without being criticized, or people giving me dirty looks; because honestly, I don't have any more fucks to give and not enough bats or hockey sticks to correct the situation that may arise since I am not the jackass whisperer. This past week has felt like a lifetime for me. I am not saying anything "bad" has happened to me, per say... I am just absolutely, completely mentally, emotionally and physically drained. I don't think my brain can take too much more. My brainfog has been the worst it has been... in YEARS!!! My insomnia is back with a vengeance, along with my anxiety. I am emotionally stressed, because even though I am told that I am not to blame for some events th...