Ramblings of a Canadian Gypsy Phoenix

Page 17 of 365. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hope you all have a great Saturday, even if it is simply lounging around; may you have a peaceful day. Today, I struggle internally. Two years ago (yesterday), my beloved Aunt passed away. When I tell you this woman was a mother to me, in EVERY way, right down to the spankings and regular stuff us Gen Xers dealt with. She basically was tough love, with a gentle touch... if that makes any sense?!! The reason I struggle with her passing is because I knew she was really sick for quite a long time, so it wasn't too surprising that she was going to die; what shocked me, and hurt me was no one told me she had died. I found out about her passing AFTER her funeral. TALK ABOUT TWISTING THE KNIFE!!! I knew my mother (adopted) was always jealous of our relationship and how close we were. I was also very well aware of how vindictive she can be towards me. Any chance she got, she'd twist that knife a little deeper in my back... it's like some ...

Hey y'all. Yes, I am off and writing another blurb about things on my mind, and about a very hot topic on many people's minds... With the massive dumping of snow (at least in my part of the world) , I can't help but think of all the homeless. I have a ton of mixed emotions when it comes to their lives and what led to the current circumstances of their situation. I know, a lot of people scoff at them, claiming they are "crackheads", "methheads", "alcoholics", "stains on society", "waste of space", etc. What is more disturbing is the amount of people who often say they should just die.                              WTAF??? It is not just a disgusting and disturbing thing to say; I can't help but wonder where people's humanity went. A lot of people lost everything thanks to the government... a fucking greedy "business" os what they are!!! Money over people... kill off the weak. It has been sooooo obvious and it...

Page 15 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. How are you this fine wintery day? I sit here, taking my time writing this entry, because I am thoroughly enjoying the beautiful white stuff covering everything outside. The blanket that silents all the noise for a time. Snow is such a serene thing to me. I know, I am a weirdo... I love rain and snow; dreary and drab days seem to comfort me. Ah well, who said we all had to be the same, right?!! It could just be the spiritual aspect of it. Similar to rain, I feel it is grounding and cleansing. It's a witch and Pagan thing (depending on your practices in the craft).  To be honest, I want nothing more than to get out there and make snow angels LOL. Do all the things we did as kids... Hell, with all the stress, frustration and people so divided on pretty much everything these days... we should get out there and have a snowball fight. Maybe get our older asses out there and slide down some hills. Yes, I am talking about toboggans, crazy carpets. OMG,...

Page 14 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy Hump Day everyone... I only hope that the humping is in the best way possible. Nothing worse than people screwing you for all the wrong reasons... Just saying!!! I am going to write about something that occurred last night. I am mentioning it because I hope my response to this encourages other people to react the same way. I have to admit, I don't always have the strength to act the way I did last night; but maybe it's the love I have from those in my life... especially my person... He's seen it all, so he is the one person who knows me, inside and out. 💚 I couldn't even take the comment seriously because the person who wrote it, clearly was a keyboard warrior, who couldn't post in their own name... they posted anonymous. I really can't stand people who don't have the balls to say shit to other's faces. It is rather disappointing that they couldn't be more creative, to be perfectly honest. The gist of the...

Page 13 of 365. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hopr all is well with you, in whatever part of the world you are in... It isn't excessively cold here; considering I live in Canada and it is middle of winter... It is a balmy +5 C outside, and we are expecting rain.  When we say that Mother Nature has been bipolar the past few years, even being angry, has been the understatement of the decade.  I am not here to write about the weather, when there is so much more on my mind, and more important things to talk about... I think I am finally coming out the other side of this nasty bout of depression and being stuck in my head. It's been a rough one, and unfortunately, those closest to me have felt the brunt of it.  Before I dive into my own rambles, I want to acknowledge that it is the 4th anniversary of the Freedom Convoy that happened here in Canada.  We can never thank our truckers enough. For a moment in time, it felt like our country was united for ONE cause... to fight fo...

  Hi again. I have been slacking on my writing, so you get the "privilege" of being stuck in my head today LOL I have been increasingly trapped in my head; mostly with things that are irrational to others, but to me, they are true fears and emotions.,, and it SUCKS, that I feel this and NO ONE understands that I don't choose to feel and act this way. I am struggling.  I am having days where I have just wanted to up and disappear. I have not been suicidal (which I DO get when I have been triggered. I am NOT a planner. I am a spur of the moment kind of person. When something triggers me, I will attempt it and that's that).  I am just trying to reassure people that I feel hopeless, not suicidal!!! The best way to describe what I feel sometimes is this... Have you, or do you love someone so much, that you feel they deserve better? It's not that you want them to choose to be with someone else, you just want them to be happy. No matter how many times they reassure you, ...

Page 11 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you? I feel like I haven't really asked you how you all are doing? I really hope you all are in good health and good spirits.  It's a new year, with A LOT of things happening in and around us... some good, some not so good and some completely rocking our world, in ways we never saw coming!!!  I honestly don't even know where to start. I am fully aware of the world events going on, and how much conflict is deeply affecting most of us... some, in ways we can't even explain. I know the government here in Canada is a disaster, things are happening here that are completely bonkers; to the point, that many are ashamed of being Canadian. America is even a bigger mess. People are hating each other for their political views. The country is SOOOOO divided, we all know there is a civil war coming; and the both sides have very valid reasons for being where they are. Honestly, it's not just a civil war, political figures are stickin...

  Page 4 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. How is your Sunday Funday going??? I am going to dive right into what is on my mind right now; unfortunately this entry isn't going to be about pleasantries. So let's have it... I have been writing about the corporation that owns the building I reside in. We had a tenant union meeting, and immediately after we met with the owner, his daughter, and a few other people in upper management.  As soon as they walked in, I knew I was going to be targeted because I am the one with the loudest voice. The problem is, I don't fear them. Everyone has the right to live in a safe, clean and warm environment and I will be the voice for those who cannot speak. So, as I was saying, everyone had gathered in the room and the first thing that is said... The owner asked his "henchman" (idiot/puppet/moron/asshole/any vile name you wanna put here), if there was anyone in the room that they were in the middle of taking to court. This bird, tells him ...

Page 3 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. How are you this lovely (damn cold) Saturday? It is the third day of the new year already. It is kinda crazy how fast time seems to be slipping by... and for the most part, I don't like it!!! In a week, my dad is going to be 87 years old, and once again, he is facing another bout with cancer; except this time, it is a rare type of skin cancer.  I just want to scream out to the universe to go pick on someone else; BUT I don't wish this kind of anguish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. My oldest granddaughter will be 6 years old in a couple weeks, and my youngest grandbaby is turning four in February. Just blows my mind. Seeing my family over the holidays really drove that point to me. I hadn't seen my family in almost a year, and when I saw my parents, my heart broke (if there was any way it could shatter anymore). I CAN say, I don't really have anything in my personal life that I can whine or complain about... there are minor thin...

  Book 3. Chapter 1. Page 1 of 365. Good Afternoon, my Lovies.  I hope all of you who went out last night, were able to toss out 2025 like the dirty, spiteful rag that is was. In our house, we tend to follow mostly, Celtic and Norse traditions. You generally are supposed to walk through your front door, walk straight through and exit at the back door (this is an invitation for good luck).  We also have the traditional cinnamon ritual done on the first of every month. I don't believe in the "new year, new me" BS. If people want to change themselves, or their lifestyle, they don't need a specific day to do that. If they truly wanted it... they would DO it!!! No excuses. I am not going to be the asshole to rain on your parade. I wish you absolutely the best in whatever you are choosing for yourself; just be sure you're do it for you. 2024 was the year of FAFO. 2025 was the year of Retribution. 2026 is the year of Rediscovery. "May the road rise to meet you, and ...

  Page 356 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I hope you all have a great Monday. We are in the home stretch of the end of this rather insane and almost crippling year, 2025. Today, I, along with a few others, are taking on the big corporation. We are sick and tired of the conditions we have to live in. We are in a first world country, and we pay for the places we live in.  We should be able to live in a safe, clean and secure dwelling... all of which these slumlords are not providing.  So today, after much fandangling, we finally snagged a meeting with the actual owner of the company. I admit, I have a lot of anxiety right now. I have really bad social anxiety, and it seems like I am going to be the one who lays all the shit on the table, and be the voice of the tenants... I AM known as the "one with the voice". I guess it's true. I cannot stand injustices and I really don't like when big corps think they can run over the little guy; especially since the little guy is LITE...

Page 355 of 365. Holy Crappola, Can you believe there are only ten days left to 2025.  Good Morning my Lovies. I hope you all have a good Sunday. I am reflecting on this past year this morning, and it is hard to believe it is almost done, yet I am very happy to see it coming to an end. It has been a difficult one for many of my loved ones and to some degree, me as well. Many, many people have faced financial difficulties this year, some still going back to when COVID hit; whether it affected them medically, or their companies... People continue to suffer. Just look out your window. There are homeless people everywhere. The foodbanks are overwhelmed. Shelters are full, with no alternative for thousands, if not millions of people. This is a first-world country...  THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE!!! I know I write often about the homeless; but this is a serious issue that no one in the government is taking seriously. In the United States, you have a President who is spending millions, if no...

Page 346 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. We have finished another work week, and we are quickly approaching the end of 2025. This year has been rough for a lot of people. Honestly, here in Canada it has really been the last 5 years. Watching people suffer, break and even die by the boat loads over these 5 years has been heartbreaking. The worst part about it is none of them died from this supposed COVID. Don't get me wrong, I fully acknowledge that COVID was a serious, serious FLU; but it was NOT what the media and governments claimed it to be. COVID caused hell in ways that has nothing to do with medical! Families crumbled ~ over finances, opposing decisions about the jab, losing jobs, being confined together 24/7. Lack of resources, the mental toll. People who have taken the jab (several of them, even), are dying of rapidly deteriorating illnesses that could only be caused by the vaccination the government forced on people. Unbelievable side effects and devastating diagnosis becau...

Page 344 of 365. Good Afternoon my dear Lovies. I come today with a story that really affected me. I am going to post the link here, so you can all see what is pulling at my heart strings, both with mad respect, gratefulness and outrage... all wrapped into one. Link :   KING OF THE DAY Now that you have seen the video, what are your thoughts??? I am not one that has the right to throw stones, as I am and never was a great mom. I am not going to make excuses for my actions and take full responsibility for them. I did the best I could, at the time I did them. One thing, my kids can never say, is their mom doesn't love them!!! Before I express what I truly think... I almost feel like there is context missing from this.  I give this man a lot of respect and praise. He saw something was amiss, and instead of ignoring it, he did the right thing to do... The sad part about the whole situation is he DID record it. I mean, it was a good thing to have, it's just maddening that some...

Page 339 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope you are all enjoying this sunny, yet brisk Friday. I love to look outside and see the beautiful fresh snow; but I wasn't thrilled on the wind... UGH!!! I am in a weird mood today. It's one I can't really describe. I am quiet and somewhat at peace. The story is pretty simple... I have gone round n round in circles with my parents for decades, and I basically closed the door on them; when I could no longer tolerate the rudeness without disrespecting myself. I couldn't do it. My 50th birthday was a few days ago. I didn't really blow it up on social media; because even though I ALWAYS celebrate the people I love birthday... I just wanted to lay in peace and solitude. It gave me the chance to reflect on all my blessings and lessons. I am grateful that I have a genuine, honest, loyal, loving man. I lack for nothing. I am getting way off track.... What I was getting at here, is this... my parents never called, texted, nor emai...

Page 336 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. I know it has been a few since I have written. I can honestly say, it has been my health, or lack thereof which has kept me away from writing. I swear I have been in a fibro flare for the past month... I feel like I could finally be coming out of it; but not before I gave in and went to the hospital's ER on Sunday. Oh the joys of leaving your life in the hands of the medical professionals... I can't stand it. I have to be alert, because if I wasn's... I'd be dead before I'd even get to the hospital.  People don't like to pay attention, or read notes... like c'mon, some of patients, especially those of us who have long-term chronic pain, or health disorders; we know A LOT about our own bodies. We may not be medical professionals; but no one knows our body better than us. The ER visit didn't do me much good.  It only showed that my kidney doesn't have stones in it, at this time; but I continue to have leisons/cys...

  Page 324 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. How are you this Thor's Day?  I woke up at the ass crack of dawn today. I want to say my heart is heavy; but, I think a better term would be, it is filled with a heaviness because I want nothing more than to take the aching of someone I cherish very much. As you know, I never share names on here, this is the no different. I am not going to share what is going on with this person neither, as it is not my story to tell. I just know my heart aches for them... if only words and a simple flip of a "wand" would cure things, right?!!  Unfortunately, I am not Samantha and this isn't "Bewitched"... as much as I would love it to be right now. At this moment in time, it REALLY sucks being an empath!!! With this person on my mind, and a lot of people I love floating through... I really need to bring up a topic, that should be talked about more... tis the season; and I am NOT talking about the Big ole Jolly Fat Guy neither. It migh...

  Page 323 of 365.  Good Afternoon Lovies. I am writing this as one tired and pissed off Canadian. I have watched my country fall to pieces, crumbling because of the spineless bitches we have sitting on Parliament Hill ~ where the shitheads are that are supposed to be protecting the very people they are hurting!!! For years, possibly decades, our once beautiful country has turned into a universal joke. Criminals who are commiting the worst of the worst are being legally allowed to roam free, since there is this lovely thing called "catch and release"... an utter embarrassment!!!  People who kill, maim, or even pedos and predators don't see much of jail... but Heaven forbid if you hurt someone's feelings, by not agreeing with their religious views, especially if you are a white person (these days).  Laws are being passed that if you offend someone who is, let's say Islamic... you are scrutinized and given very stiff penalties in the eyes of the law; but if you do t...

Page 321 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. I mean, I wanna say it is a good morning; frankly, I want to crawl back into bed, and I probably will after I am done writing this entry.  No matter how I feel when I wake up... Mondays seem to drag me down. I cannot explain it. I have so much stuck in my head, yet I cannot put it down in words. I am not in a bad mood. I am jusy "being"... if that makes sense?!! There is nothing particularly wrong in my life, per se.  (OMG, I just found out I have been spelling that incorrectly my whole life... pretty bad for an English Major ~ oopsies). Am I the only one who gets the Monday Blues??? I really should count my blessings. I have a roof over my head. I have food in my belly (or at least I do, when I have an appetite... but that is a whole other story). I have heat (sometimes, depends on the "mood" of the boilers of my building LOL). I have my health (yes, I am breathing on my own). My children and grandchildren are healthy and livin...

Page 320 of 365. Good Afternoon Lovies. It is Sunday Funday... and for those of us in Canada it is Grey Cup Day. LOL, and for those of you who do not know, the Grey Cup is the Canadian version of the Vince Lombardi Trophy for the Superbowl.  CFL (Canadian Football League) vs NFL (National Football League). I have zero intention of watching the game. This may be the first year, I am not watching much of any sports, other than hockey.  Everything has become soooo political, on and off the field/grid, etc, that it's spoiled sports for me!!! I DO have a topic on my mind to write about today; but I feel my words will not justify what I am trying to express.  Lately, I have been seeing a lot of people expressing how they are tired of being fkd over, and are really wanting to be left alone unless someone with pure intentions can bring peace to their "bubble"... the "need" to be with someone is diminishing the older we get.  The odd thing I am also finding, is others wh...

Page 319 of 365. Good Morning Lovies. It's Caturday 🐱 It is supposed to rain in the next couple hours, which is fine with me, as I am not planning on going outside anytime soon. It isn't warm out, so for anyone out and about, I hope you got the right gear on to be comfortable today. Today, it is going to be a simple kind of entry. As an empath, I have a terrible time sitting back and watching people suffer; especially the people who are attached to my soul. I am a fixer and a giver. I don't like it when the people I love the most are in any sort of pain and anguish... and today, is one of those days. I don't know what I am really trying to say today. I just know my heart is heavy and I don't have the words to explain why... this may be a first for me. I hope you all have a good weekend. Please stay safe. Be well and Be loved. Check in on your loved ones, don't take them for granted... cherish the time you have, because honestly, you never know. ~ Phoenix

  Page 318 of 365 Good Afternoon Lovies. Happy FriYay!!!  I hope your workday flies by smoothly and you get to rock into the weekend without any drama. May you be safe and have a great time, in whatever you are doing.  I have no plans for the weekend, but I am perfectly fine with staying home and enjoying the comforts of my bubble. I have zero qualms about sitting at home, catching up on a movie, or simply hanging out with my Ma.  Peace and tranquility are always my goal!!! I am NOT one who goes out to bars. I don't need to get all dressed up and hit the dance floor, flauting my shyt to see which guy's attention I can grab. I am great in that department, and quite honestly, I am not a floozy; my body, my lady bits are for only one man to see... it's called RESPECT!!!  I think there are a lot of people ~ especially women who have seemed to forgotten what that word means. It's not a control thing. It's not just about respecting your significant other, it's also ab...

Page 316 of 365.  Good day Lovies. I am going to straight up warn you that this entry needs a TRIGGER WARNING!!! I am who I am, and who am I if I don't speak bluntly on things? I will simply dive right into what is on my mind, while it is still fresh... Yesterday, I was in one of the groups on facebook called "Lies in the Bible".  There was a picture posted of an adult male with his pants down; mind you he had boxers on. He had a young girl sitting on his lap crying.  The tag on it, said that he was her teacher, and she was learning about the reproductive system of some sort of animal. There were HUNDREDS of comments, NONE of which were saying how wrong the picture was. JFC, I snapped. I posted "WTF is wrong with you people? This is vile and disgusting". Some woman came back at me with, "You Prick, they are not a different species!" HUH??? Now it suddenly became about race... first off, it had nothing to do with skin colour; it had to do with the fact...