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One of Those Kinda Days...

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Page 335 of 366. Good Evening Lovies. WOW. I don't think I ever wrote at this time for a blurb. I guess it's because I haven't really been in the right mood to write about anything specific, nor has there been anything that has gotten me soooo twisted that I needed to write the thoughts out to figure out what was necessary for my mind to settle!!! It has been bit of a yo-yo week with my emotions but nothing that was brought on by any one specific thing ~ between my birthday and the American celebration of their Thanksgiving, it has brought a lot of "unnecessary" emotions out of me. I feel it's as though I have changed what the day means to me, both the Canadian and the American one. I do NOT agree with their origins. I don't know how anyone, in their right mind can consciously sit at a table and feast, KNOWING the history of the days and their true sinister meanings. Instead of following the traditions set out for these holidays; I prefer to make my own......

Two More Days...

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  Hmmmm a second post of the day. I just looked at the calendar, and even though my birthday was only 4 days ago; it really doesn't seem like this year is coming to a close. I know as we get older, the years seem to be slipping by... and I cannot say I am really complaining about it. I never understood how people were bothered about aging. Sure, I remember when we were kids, we always thought people our age were "way over the hill" and "ancient"... now that we're here... MEH?!! For the most part, I cannot complain about this year as a whole.... A friend has become my "person". I have found inner peace after almost overdosing on god knows what. (I honestly can not tell you what I had taken, nor what triggered the episode; but it took that to bring peace into my life!!!) I released a lot of negative people and negativity from my life... a HUGE year of purging. Obviously, you all know I've been dealing with some serious health issues; but that has...

Maybe Not Meant for This World...

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  Page 334 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. It's FriYay!!! I hope you all have a fantastic weekend, with whatever you are doing.  I plan to do exactly what I am doing right now... either listening to music and writing in my blog, being on social media, or watching something on tv and talking to beloved. I come today with a dilemma.  I have been told this most of my life, that I love too much... I am too passionate about things... I take things too personally... I take on soooo much for my loved ones.  I do not deny any of these "observations" and I have no intention of changing me to suit the narrative of society, or anyone around me. I know what has lead me to being this way... I have been, in my life, someone who has experienced what it feels like to not have love; and I vowed to myself that NO one who enters my life will EVER feel that. I do not wish that on my worst enemy. Maybe it's one of my biggest flaws; but it is a part of me... I find it sad that my love ...

This Topic Again.... For You DAFT People!!!

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Page 332 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. Sorry, I am not really in the mood for the usual salutations as I am growing weary of writing about this topic. I don't know when people are going to pull their heads out of their asses and see how fkn ignorant they are. I KNOW I just wrote about this yesterday, and before I even begin writing my rant... I want to clarify since I am an empath, I do NOT watch the news for this very reason. I DO however stay in a group that shares information about the city I live in, which I look at... even that, I can't read every day because people are soooo bitter and their attitudes are very disheartening. It disturbs my soul!!! The topic today was another encampment went up in flames. The biggest thing people were doing was either laughing at the people, or bitching that their tax dollars were going to these pieces of trash... BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Sorry, I kind of drown out their words when they get to this point because they are just not grasping the ma...

You Piss Me Off... You Fkn Jerks

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  Evening all. This blurb is going to seem like it is coming out of left field; but if you have been folowing my blog, you would know this is one thing that is near and dear to me heart. I will ALWAYS advocate for this cause and I will scream and yell... I will shout at the top of my lungs until there is no breath left in my body, to make sure this world and society in general sees what their government is doing to all its citizens!!! I prefer to stay anonymous when it comes to donations or helping people and I will continue to be that way. I mean, I am the furthest from being rich, but if I see someone is downtrodden, if I can even offer them an ear, shoulder or even a coffee and something to eat; damn straight I am going to do that.  I have been on both sides of the tracks, and for all the assholes who mock these people; you really don't grasp that at any moment that could be you!!!  Go sit in your warm kooshie home, with a full belly, making fun of those who are even ...

Embrace It ~ Celebrate EVERY Moment

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Page 331 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope it is a fantabulous day for all of you. May good health and happiness greet you this day...Today is the first official day of my 50th trip around the sun. BLOWS MY MIND!!!  Truthfully, I never thought I would live past 45. It was a "feeling" I had my entire life; and while I was clinically dead a month before my 45th birthday, I guess in a sense it DID come to fruition.  Surpisingly, I am here to talk about it... The Universe does work in mysterious ways, let me tell ya. I spent the day rather quiet yesterday; which is something I like. I spent part of the day with my sister and "Ma". Had a cuppa tea, our usual daily routine, then I mosied on to see a couple of friends, who although had come into my life fairly recently, but feel like ol familiar souls. I spent the evening with them, and ofcourse I ended the night, the way I started it... talking to beloved for hours :). See, I like simple things... peaceful things... I...

YES! I Am THAT Kinda Chick

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As you can see from the title, I am in one of those moods, so even I am going to be surprised by what will be presented from my fingertips at this point. I will not get into the nitty gritty of stuff, but I am sure most of you have guessed, life hasn't always been peaches & cream for me (like so many others in the world), and we all have either wallowed in it, or rose above it...  ...t hat doesn't mean that we don't have moments where we are suddenly reminded of them; or that something doesn't trigger us and pull us right back into that very moment in time that nearly decimated us. PTSD/CPTSD is no joke. Depression is no joke. Those of us who cope with it, we are not just victims. We eventually become survivors... and kudos to all of those who make it to this stage, because to finally acknowledge what has happened and begin to process it, is probably the hardest mission to accomplish in the world. If no one has told you... I AM FUCKING PROUD OF YOU!!! Once we get pa...

Page 329 of 366... Tough Day Mentally!!!

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  Good Evening Lovies. I know it is late in the day for me to be writing. It's be a rather lazy day for me. To tell the truth, days like these are NOT really good for me.  I get stuck in my head... like REALLY stuck in my head. I am a brutal overthinker, and I take a lot of things personal.  I struggle when the universe shows signs that maybe, once again, the one person who fills my heart, who challenges me, has incredible intellect and is my rational thinking when I am on the brink... is going to walk away, or pulled away from me...  I am beginning to really believe that I am not allowed to be happy in this life. I can be the beacon of hope for others. I can help lift them up; show them love and show them what beauty they have within, no matter how broken they feel... their souls speak volumes!!! BUT when it comes to myself... the universe gives me a little taste of what I encourage in others and takes it away from me.  Maybe I am reading too much in the univer...

Sometimes the Rabbithole is Just a "Plot"

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  I am back, with yet another thought that is weighing on my mind. Don't worry, it's not really a negative thing... it's more of a "please use my experience when considering what you're going to do" kind of scenario. We all know I am far from a know-it-all; and I am always craving knowledge... there is ALWAYS more things to learn, for as long as your body draws breath.  If your experiences can help even one person in their decision, then it's a beautiful thing, no??? You could save someone from the heartache you've felt. The tale I am going to share today, is about my experience of being an adoptee. Many, if not all, people have this whimsical belief that all adoptees have this sense of obligation to be grateful to be adopted after their biological "parent(s)" either gave them up, or they were apprehended by Child Protective Services...  You couldn't be more wrong; and putting that kind of pressure on a child, even a teen or adult is such...

If You Don't Stand For Something...

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  Page 328 of 366. Hi y'all. I hope you have a great Saturday, it's not raining, but looks rather gloomy out... a day where I'd love to be walking by the water, if the weather was a tad bit warmer, digging my toes in the sand, knowing I am pretty much the only one enjoying the peace the universe presents us with.  With that being said, I am going to jump right into the topic on my mind today... I read an article yesterday that infuriated me. Yes, I understand this is a controversial subject, particularly here in Canada; but I am throwing in my two cents (with inflation it'll be 5 cents now)!!! The Superior Court of Canada has convictioned Pat King of being guilty of 5 charges for his role in the massive protest that happened here in Ottawa, Ontario ~ Parliament Hill (where our government is... like our version of the White House). Pat King is a Canadian Activist that was one of the key figures that worked along with others (I am not naming names) , to create what is pro...

Hiding Like the Bitches You Are!!!

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  Page 327 of 366. Hi Lovies. I am in a mood. I saw a video today that through me for a total loop. The reason I am writing about it because this appears to be a world-wide issue that I really didn't relate to until recently. I mean, I understand discrimination, when it comes to my own personal life... but this blurb isn't about that. I am going to share a link of the video I saw. I am not here to discuss what the first part of the video is about but I sure as fuck have words to say about the latter part of it... Check this out...  POS COWARDS!!! I love watching little reels. After you saw it... how did you feel??? I am 100% behind Craig Clark aka @Goose_2659. He is definitely a GenX kinda guy... he is very blunt, funny and doesn't have a filter. To be honest, I think all of us from GenXers somehow were born without a filter... I know, it wasn't in my warranty!!! Watching these pussies walking the streets with the swastika on their flags, blows my mind for a few reasons...

The Year of FAFO

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  Afternoon Lovies. I'm sending out love and light to those who are struggling with this time of the year; especially if this sort of weather is getting them down, or keeping them "down" physically. I hear ya, and I definitely feel ya on that one!!! I kinda want to talk about something that may be bit of a touchy subject with some, nonetheless I am going to do it anyways... WHY??? Because I am me! SIMPLE. First off, we all know this year has been quite the rollercoaster, and I want to say we're at the end of the 11th hour/chapter; we should all give ourselves a pat on the back for getting through another difficult, but NOT impossible year! I DO know this year has given a lot of lessons to numerous people. It has shown a number of us who are real, legit, solid people and who are only there for convenience... it has shown others what love (pure and unwavering) is. The greatest gift this year has given a lot of us, is a mirror. Odd, right? You need to know I am only wri...

A Beautiful Disaster

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Hi All. Wow, two days in a row that I am writing more than one blurb... odd, but I am running with it. I saw a photo pop up somewhere on social media and it brought a smile to my face, along with a tear realizing how privileged I was to have such an angel in my life but sad that the world lost such an incredible soul far too soon.  I understand why the universe brought her into my crazy ass space; and I get that she was one of the "here for a season and reason" kinda of souls. It just really made me think of her, and I had to pause and celebrate her, in the only way I know how... and the way she'd love the most... in my writings. First, I really need people to understand that sometimes people you meet on social media can have just as much of an impact on your life as people who are actually IN your real life. Violet, most definitely, was one of them. I cannot even tell you where we met, or how long ago it was; but we were in each others lives for a good number of years; s...

It's Amazing What Triggers Me...

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  Page  326 of 366. Good Afternoon my Lovies. I hope the day has gone smoothly for you.  I know a lot of you don't like the dreary, rainy, foggy weather but I am rather fond of it. I don't like what it does to my body, but I will take the win of enjoying what rain and storms signify to me.  I, like many others, cope with chronic pain along with other ailments that are deeply affected by the weather ~ either way it affects me...  Heat is brutal for me, probably far worse than the cold, but damp is not the greatest for me neither...  Let's not even discuss how the barometric pressure is literally a psychotic rollercoaster, on a GOOD day!!! For today, it is dreary, it the fog has been heavy, but I have a deep appreciation for fog. It brings a depth of mystery to life, that only fog has the ability to do... and who doesn't like a little mystery??? Hell, maybe it's just the British in me that has just adapted to it... who knows. LOL Let's get to the topic at han...

2024 as a Whole...

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  I am impressed. I actually am writing another blurb today... I want to thank all of my readers, as I know my posts can be somewhat of a rollercoaster; just like my life.  We have our good days, we have our bad days... and then we have our MEH!!!  What inspired this entry was a comment I just made to my sister... Many, countless numbers of people... Hell, most of the planet was effected by the plandemic. These past 4 years have had our world doing flipflops; no one really know what the idiots in charge would pull next!!! This brings me to what I said... I was hesitant to say it out loud, but what's a better way to manifest things, than to shout it out to the universe??? I feel that 2024 was a better year than 2023. I guess you can say I'm saying that with "tongue in cheek"; in the sense, that as far as I can recall 2024 has been the worst one for my health in all my 49 years. January kicked off with me overdosing... to this day, I am unsure what triggered it. As craz...

Dazed and Confused

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  Page 325 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. I hope the day treats you well. I know I say a lot of the time, I cannot believe we are already in the 11th month of 2024; but at the same time, these days I feel like time is going backwards. Is it just me??? I feel like I have been in a cloud lately and I don't like this feeling, at all. After my most recent visit with my family doctor, we have decided to try for me to no longer take my anxiety/panic attack medications.  I was finding they made me more anxious afterwards.  There really was no benefit to them. It's a trial & error thing right now... I am thinking I could be "off" because my body is going through withdrawals from that... ohhhhh the joys having mental health disorders, right?!! I also have what they call "seasonal depression", which I find kind of odd because I am one of the few who absolutely LOVES the winter. Maybe they call it that because many don't enjoy holidays due to some sort of traum...

MASSIVE, MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING! DON'T READ IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE BEYOND TRAGIC NEWS

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  Page 323 of 366. Good Evening Lovies. This entry is going to trigger a lot of people, so if you cannot handle hearing or reading about massive tragic events; please leave this blurb... I do not want to upset anyone.  PLEASE!!! I was just on my facebook, when this news article popped up and my heart instantly sank, it swelled up with so much sadness; my eyes welled up with tears. The headline read this... DAD BREAKS WINDOW TO SAVE 7 INFANTS IN NICU HOSPITAL, BUT WASN'T ABLE TO RESCUE HIS TWIN DAUGHTERS I am not going to write this father's name, nor where this happened. If you choose to research it, be my guest. The only reason I am writing this right now is because how do you react to such news??? To the world he is a definite hero, but to his own self???  Don't get me wrong. I, 100% hail him as a hero. He saved 7 of the 45 infants that survived. He rushed into the hospital as everyone was rushing out; including firefighters who saw no way in. He smashed a window, knowi...

What's With the World Today

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Page 322 of 366. Good Afternoon Lovies. Before I begin this blurb, I am going to try my utmost to not judge people, as I am not perfect, and no one is all-knowing. Life is a constant lesson, you either learn from it, or you are destine to repeat it until you get it right...  Please keep this in mind, as I write what I am about to say... We have all watched how the world went from the 60s which was pretty much all love, drugs and rock n' roll. The "Hippie" era, so to speak!!! I like to think they were very much into spiritualism in the 60s; so how did we go from that, to our current state??? I am not denying that there were many, many other things happening through the decades prior to the 60s; and after the 60s... This blurb is not about all of that, it is more about the spiritual part.  We all, or at least, I hope we all know there is something more in this universe than just us humans beings. Whether you are religious or spiritual (these days), you still have to acknowl...